are you a time traveler or am i just a slow walker? there is no such thing as absolute rest in the universe, and yet everything seems to stand still a breathless moment when our eyes meet: the moon ceases to spin, bees suspend in mid-air, electrons pause in their orbit around the nucleus of the atom. i freeze and my heart stutters, seemingly, to a halt. light pours in and i swear i can see the infinity in your eyes.
you can stun the wind with your laughter. forget me, forget everyone else ─ you can bring the sun itself down to its knees with one glance. did i ever tell you that your voice is like silk, like liquid sunlight. that seeing you is like seeing the moon rise. i am falling and falling and falling for you and i can't help it. it's like you steal oxygen from my lungs but you give my heart something to beat for.
are you an angel? or am i just a daydreamer? i see your wings unfold when you think no one is watching, and sometimes you look at the sky like it holds all your dreams. do you have anyone you love up there, are they telling you to come home? galaxies spin away from each other and the universe expands still ─ it is not over yet. stay just a little longer, even though it is only for one second. i can scissor away your pain, slip it into my back pocket. when our eyes meet time stops anyway.
you look away. and the world starts moving again, and starlight continues its journey through space, and i can finally breathe. but have i ever told you that i would have exchanged all the oxygen molecules on this planet just to see you and your sunset smile one more time. the night is too dark without you. have i ever told you that you are love. you rise in its weightlessness when your wings unsheathe themselves for the first and the last time. you have found your home in the river of stars above; i look up at the sky sometimes and wonder where you are. you could have taught me how to travel backwards in time so i could come visit. is it too late now? the clocks are running and i can't catch up and i see your face every day.
am i in love? light seems to shine upon you even in the dark. when you sing, the forests go silent. you cradle music between the bars of your ribcage. forget instruments, your presence alone can turn silence into a song. i am a forest and you the sun, and the love between us grows like flowers waking on a summer's morning, the petals yawning open to greet the light. i hold your heart in the palm of my hands. but one day you sink below the horizon and never return. colours dissolve. the stars left in the sky are too far away and so are you. leaves fall from trees, one by one. but i stand still in the space between emptiness and the black void, trapped in the tide of time. it is cold and it is too cold and i think i miss you. or am i just not used to the dark yet?
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