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XI

Chapter Eleven

Maybe, the right question wasn't 'who is she?', 'cause even if he told me who the other girl was, it wouldn't make me calm my insides. Hindi ako makokontento na lang kapag nalaman ko kung sino ang isa pang babae sa buhay niya ngayon. I would have to know everything, as to why… why did he have to keep it from me?

Hindi ko pinakiki-alaman ang mga babae sa buhay niya, ang mga babaeng nakakarelasyon niya, unless, they were our prospect. And now, I was afraid to ask him. I was afraid he would tell me that he was just protecting whoever that girl was and that I was out of it. Dahil ang isang Jimin Park, malihim siya sa mga bagay, tao rather, na sobrang pinapahalagahan niya. He kept them from the public so that he could protect them.

That was what he had been doing to our best-kept secret… and to our missions.

And I didn't think I was ready. I didn't think I was ready to accept that he was already having something else to protect that— someone rather, who was not me.

Mabilis akong nag-iwas ng tingin sa kaniya nang maramdaman ko ang paninikip ng kung anumang bagay na nasa dibdib ko. It ached that if I wasn't just holding the seatbelt, I could have clutched my chest to stop it from hurting. Namataan ko sa labas ang matayog na tarangkahan ng bahay namin ngunit nilagpasan lang namin iyon habang hinahabol ko ng tingin ang puting bar gates ng Urduja Residence mula sa side mirror ng sasakyan.

"You don't have to answer i-it. I mean, the issues about you at LSAC Papers sort of bothering me a bit, but it's fine." Nagkibit-balikat ako para ipakita sa kaniyang hindi naman big deal para sa akin iyon kahit na sa loob ko, nasasaktan ako.

I couldn't believe this. I couldn't believe I would be this stupidly hurt over someone who was unknown. Hindi ako makapaniwalang sa dami ng mga magagandang babaeng na-i-date na ni Jimin ay nagseselos ako sa isang babaeng hindi ko naman kilala!

Damn it!

I didn't know if he was just being too submissive to me or he just didn't want to answer my question so he really didn't answer. Pero ramdam ko, ramdam kong may pinoprotektahan siya. Ramdam kong may inililihim siya sa akin. So new and bizarre dahil kailanman, walang inilihim sa akin ang isang Jimin Park. 'Cause he had always been an open book to me.

Napabuntong-hininga na lang ako nang huminto na ang sasakyan niya sa harap ng matayog at puting tarangkahan na nagkukubli sa mga ari-arian at lupain ng mga Park sa loob. Katulad ng landscape ng Urduja Residence ay may mahaba at halos isang kilometrong driveway bago marating ang mansiyon ng mga Park.

The guard that I spotted at the guardhouse was already talking to someone through his radio phone before the gate slowly parted in two.

"Hannan, I want you to trust me all through this. Could you do that?" Bago tuluyang pumasok ang sasakyan niya ay narinig ko siyang nagsalita sa pinakabanayad ngunit mariing tono na nagpalingon sa akin.

Wala sa akin ang atensyon niya kung hindi nasa daan kaya hindi na ako sumagot. He was driving so seriously with his stern and stoic face as if the road had done something to him. Lumilitaw ang mga buto sa panga niya at mahigpit ang pagkakahawak sa manibela.

How can you even ask me that when I've already poured all my trust in you? Nasa iyo na lahat. I didn't even have anything left in me… and I hope, you don't find way to betray me.

His car stopped in front of the Park Mansion that stood elegantly and very tall for us to marvel at. Noong bata pa ako ay madalas akong mamangha sa laki nito dahil sa mga Disney movies ko lang nakikita ang mga tulad ng Park Mansion. Malaki ang Urduja Mansion but Park Mansion was undeniably and inexplicably tall plus it had classic style that you could only imagine contemporary things inside.