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XXIII

Chapter Twenty Three

A love triangle or a one-sided love?

Damn, since when did everything get that complicated and dramatic? Since when did we all get tangled up with a complicated love triangle and a dramatic one-sided love?

Mukhang hindi lang ako ang hindi pumabor sa sinabing iyon ni Kuya Yoongi dahil matapos niyang iwan ang leisure room na puno ng katanungan ang mga isipan namin ay mabilis at walang sabing sumunod si Jungkook sa kaniya. Ate Milan even called out to Jungkook but he didn't come back or even say anything back. Since she failed, matalim ang tinging binalingan ako ni Ate Milan na nakapag-paatras sa akin.

My heart felt like being squeezed hard because of that. My sister and I weren't perfect siblings, we often argued and got insincerely upset with each other but we really didn't get truly mad and we didn't fight. So seeing her now as if all ready to claw me, as if all ready to strangle me to death terrified and upset me.

All just because of Jungkook Jeon?

She was a soft person, so I couldn't imagine her being so mad and upset with me.

"Ate, why are you so into getting me with Jungkook?" Hindi ko napigilang magtaas ng boses dahil masakit para sa akin na nagagalit siya ngayon sa akin dahil lang sa hindi ko nararamdaman ang gusto niyang maramdaman ko sa taong iyon.

It was not like I could ask my heart to like who she wanted for me. It was not like it was easy for me to just maneuver my emotions and make it feel something for Jungkook Jeon. Kasi hindi ko nga nagawang pigilan na magkaroon ng nararamdaman kay Jimin!

Kung puwede lang, hindi ko hahayaang malagay ako sa sitwasyong ganito! Hindi ko hahayaang ma-ipit ako sa nararamdaman kong wala namang kasiguraduhan! Kasi iyong taong pinili ng puso kong mahalin ay hindi marunong magseryoso!

There, I said it!

Damn it, I was in love with my best friend. I was in love with a play boy, someone who always played around, someone who always fvcked around and someone who didn't love.

I was in love with Jimin freaking Park!

Nanginig ang mga labi ko nang makita kong lumambot ang ekspresiyon ng mukha ni Ate Milan. From behind her, I saw Kuya Hoseok gently caress her shoulders as if helping her light the weight on her shoulders.

Good for her, good for her 'cause she had her love of her life every time she felt upset or heavy-hearted. Good for her 'cause she had Kuya Hoseok who she loved so much and loved her back just as the same. Good for her, and very unfortunate for me 'cause Jimin just stood in the same room but I couldn't touch him, I couldn't sink into his safe embrace without them getting mad over it!

Why was life so damn freaking unfair? Why were they so unfair?!

My heart hurt even more when I saw Jimin looking sadly at me, frozen in his ground and very devastated more than me. Oh, that was the love of my life there, also being deprived of what he wanted, though I didn't know how he felt about all this.

Pero tulad nga ng sabi ni Kuya Jin at Taehyung, we were inseparable, hindi kami sanay na inilalayo sa isa't isa.

"S, Kookie deserves you m-more than anyone—"

"Love, Jimin's here…" Malambot ang tono ng boses ni Kuya Hoseok nang pinutol niya ang sinasabi ni Ate Milan, bahagya niyang nilingon si Jimin na malungkot na ngayong nakatitig kay Ate.

"I don't care, Hobi! He doesn't see my sister the way she looks at him! Kaya kung may masasaktan man dito, kapatid ko iyon! She needs to know beforehand that Jungkook won't ever hurt her like what Jimin has been doing—"