He Submits [BTS Fanfiction] √

XXVI

⚠️ mild smut ⚠️

- Hannan ♥

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Chapter Twenty-six

I didn't need an escape plan just to getaway from my father, I didn't need to runaway from his manipulation, I just needed to distance myself from him in the mean time just to have my space and my time, 'cause it suffocated me being with the same place with him.

Noon ay ipagdidiwang ko pa kung mananatili siya ng matagal sa bahay, kung panandalian niyang iiwan ang trabaho niya para bigyan kami ni Ate Milan ng oras at atensyon niya, at kung pipiliin niyang magpaka-amang muli sa amin.

I had been there, patiently and silently waiting for any of it to happen, too willing to give him a chance and too hopeful for a change within him. I had been there, still being a daughter for him, though he didn't act like a father to us anymore. I had been there, only to be pushed to my limits and got died hopes 'cause he just proved me that he wouldn't ever be the same anymore.

Makakaya niyang manipulahin ang buhay ko, makakaya niyang diktahan ako at makakaya niyang ilagay ako sa sitwasyong alam naming parehong hindi ko magugustuhan. Makakaya niya kasi hindi na siya iyong dating Daddy ko.

He had changed, he had literally just changed into an entirely different man.

Maiintindihan ko kung masyadong malaki ang naging impact sa kaniya ng pagkamatay ni Mommy, maiintindihan ko kung hanggang ngayon ay naroon pa rin siya sa pahinang iyon ng mga buhay namin, maiintindihan ko rin kung hindi niya magawang mag-move on dahil saksi ako sa magandang pagsasama nila ni Mommy noon. Pero ang hindi ko maintindihan at hindi ko matanggap ay kung bakit mas pinipili niyang maging malayo sa amin ni Ate Milan kung puwede namang sama-sama kaming magmu-move on mula sa mga nangyari noon.

I loved my mother, I was still loving her so much. She was my heaven and my light, but I knew while growing up and with how my mother had taught my young mind, I knew she would never like if we all chose to live in the memory of her.

Alam kong gugustuhin ni Mommy na pare-pareho kaming mag-move on.

My mother's death devastated all of us. The light of this family died and it wasn't easy, it was devastating, but it devastated us more 'cause the pillar of this family chose to live in the past. He chose to stay, he chose to never forget and he chose to stay as just that.

It was like the pillar had fallen down together with the light… just like how my father seemed dead upon my mother's death.

Yakap-yakap ko ng mahigpit ang sarili ko dahil kahit na nakasuot ako ng zip-up hoodie ay nanunuot pa rin sa katawan ko ang panggabing lamig ng paligid lalo na at tanging cotton short lang ang suot kong pang-ibaba. Nanatili akong nakatayo sa harap ng guardhouse habang hinihintay ang taong sigurado akong magagawa akong ilayo mula kay Daddy ngayon.

I was not running away, I just needed a space.

"Miss Hannan, malalagot po talaga ako sa Daddy mo kapag hindi ko ipina-alam na lalabas ka ng Urduja Res—" Natigilan sa pagsasalita ang guard na nasa loob ng guardhouse nang masama ang tinging binalingan ko siya, agad siyang yumuko para iiwas ang tingin mula sa mga mata ko.

"Don't ever say anything about me to my father or to your head boss, don't even mention anything about Jimin coming here or else I'll have you fired myself."

Hindi ko siya gustong takutin, hindi rin naman ako masungit sa mga tauhan namin pero gagawin ko talaga iyong sinabi ko oras na makarating ngayon kay Daddy ang pag-alis ko.