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XXXVI

Chapter Thirty-six

Before, Daddy would go to work early and wouldn't even bother sitting for a breakfast with us. He would rather bury himself with his workloads in his office than eat with us, I would just wake up with him out of the house already.

It had become a habit I forced to live in.

Tinanggap ko iyon, oo, dahil mas madali iyon kaysa ang paulit-ulit siyang kulitin na sumabay sa amin. Tinanggap ko iyon, dahil mas madali iyon kaysa ang tanggapin sa sarili kong hindi pa rin niya magawang pakawalan ang mga ala-ala ni Mommy. Tinanggap ko kasi nagkamali ako.

Just to be fair with him, for misunderstanding him, I let him do what pleased him.

At ngayong pinagmamasdan ko siyang naglalakad pababa ng ilang baitang hagdan patungo sa sasakyan niyang nakaparada sa harap ng mansiyon, napagtanto kong muli na sobrang dami ko pa lang sinayang noon.

The time, the chances and the emotions bursted.

I slowly raised my hand and waved him goodbye when I saw his car rapidly stride along the long driveway towards the main gate from the faraway distance, my lips lightly stretching upward for a small smile and my eyes immediately watering for the tears been deprived to fall.

What I would freaking give for Daddy's resolve was something I would seriously take more effort for, even if it would take me a lifetime, a broken heart and many more sacrifices.

"He was unusually very soft today, did you notice?" Hindi ko namalayan ang paglapit sa akin ni Ate Milan pero hindi ko siya nilingon, nanatili akong nakatitig sa papalayong sasakyan ni Daddy.

"He was like his usual self, you mean…" I chuckled a bit, remembering how he couldn't stop reminding us right manners while at the dining table earlier, like before.

He was his usual self earlier. Ganoong-ganoon siya noong nabubuhay pa si Mommy, ganoon pa rin naman siya hanggang ngayon pero iyong kanina, pakiramdam ko, iyong dating Daddy namin ang kasama namin sa hapag.

The way how he softly scolded us over loudly talking while eating, how he scolded us over the left foods on our plate, telling there were unfortunate people who couldn't afford to eat once a day and how he reminded us how to properly act at the dining table.

"Are you forgetting the right manners I've taught you, ladies?"

Nagkatinginan kami ni Ate Milan dahil sa sinabi ni Daddy at saka parehong mabilis na umayos ng upo, tumikhim at nagpigil ng ngiti.

Ayaw ko na rin pang isipin kung bakit pinili niyang dito mag-breakfast sa bahay ngayon kasabay namin gayong madalas ay hindi siya sumasabay, ang mahalaga, nakasabay namin siya.

All of his absence, it all paid off with just one breakfast.

"It's all because of what you said last night, you just don't know how he rattled the maids and even ordered Doctor Kamil to quickly come here after you fainted. You were too unconscious to even be aware how he carefully held you and brought you to your room. Last night, he was the same loving father we had before, last night, he was Daddy… before Mommy d-died."

Hindi ako gumalaw nang maramdaman ko ang marahang pagyakap sa akin ni Ate Milan, hinawakan niya ang ulo ko at dinala sa dibdib niya habang hinahaplos ng isang palad niya ang braso ko. Her warm embrace brought me a calming peace, caressing my heart and putting my mind on some sort of calmness.

Masakit na dahil sa mga nangyari noon, pati si Ate Milan ay kinailangang magdusa sa pagpaparusa ni Daddy sa sarili niya. I got out of the misery, they had done everything for me to get better before but I failed to see their miseries.