Suicidal ✽ Jamilton ✔

~ Chapter 1 ~

✽~ Alexander's POV ~✽

Today is the first day of college and the sucky thing is that I have a dorm I'm much happier without a dorm because of NO ROOMMATES! I can just sit back and be left alone. 

I don't like being around people unless they are my friends because its just awkward.

I go to the office to pick up my paper of where my dorm is. Room 207. Cool. I go to my friend Laurens who also got his paper. It read: Room 207. "YES!" we both yell and high five at the same time.
Well i guess its better than James Madison or Thomas Jefferson
We go to our dorm and get ready for orientation week which starts tomorrow and then we have another week off to get ready for the real classes. I unpack all my stuff and then lie down on my bed. 

"Are you going to unpack your bags, John?" I ask and he shakes his head. "I'm going to wait for tomorrow I'm exhausted." He replies, yawning. "Okay." I went back to my room and sat in my chair at my desk to work on my homework.

I got my lamp and set it on my desk then put my essay down. School hasn't even started yet but I asked for extra work.

So I did it for about four hours when Laurens came in. "Alex go to sleep all I hear is your pen moving around and I can't sleep." He says. "No, I am not tired i-"I am cut off by him turning off my light and putting my work in my folder and putting me in bed. He kisses my forehead in a brotherly manner. He and I are both bisexual but I have no major feelings for him. He is more of a brother to me.

I fell asleep and it was a pretty good day. 

✽~ The next day ~✽

Laurens and I walked to classes together when the speakers say, "Alexander Hamilton, John Laurens, Thomas Jefferson, and Marquis de Lafayette report to the office, please." I sigh and go there because of Jefferson that bitch. He used to bully me in highschool. He wasn't that bad but he did some really messed up shit. I hate him please no.

When we arrive there the principle says "I am afraid we had a little mixup. Laurens your dorm is with Lafayette here and Jefferson, You're with Hamilton." She says. "What?! No! Can I please stay with Laurens or something Jefferson and I are not the best of friends." "Yes I would love to stay with Lafayette, Heck I will even have a dorm by myself! Just please, NOT HAMILTON-" Jefferson and I both say. "I am sorry but I am not in charge of that myself, despite being the principle.but if it will make you feel better I will allow all of you to have the day off to unpack."

 "Thanks," I say, groaning on the way out. I go back to the dorm and lay down on my bed. Hitting my head on the wall. I take out my razor and say, "Lord, show me how to say no to this, I don't know how to say no to this. I know I promised a new life here in college but-" I cut my wrist. I was going to start over here in college no cuts. Nothing but he will harass me here I can't do this. I cut again causing my lap to be covered in blood.

Because I cannot do this with Thomas. He's so mean and unless he's changed.

I guess I was crying or something because Jefferson burst into the room and before he noticed, I rolled down my sleeves and put the razor away and getting the blanket on to cover anything that happened. Yep I was crying

I was crying...

SHIT I WAS CRYING
IN FRONT OF THE MOST POPULAR, BADASS BULLY IN ALL OF KINGS COLLEGE AND HIGH SCHOOL!

I wipe my tears fast but he notices and laughs. He scoffed. "Oh look Alex is going to whine whine whine all night" he says and I push him away but he punches me in response. My nose starts to bleed and I start sniffling again but he laughs again. I kick him away and slam the door on his face, locking it. 

I cut deeper and cried louder but nobody was there to hear me. 

"Why couldn't I just stay with John?!" I yell out loud I hear Jefferson groaning as well when he heard that. 

✽~ Thomas's POV ~✽

I went to my new dorm with Hamilton. One of my biggest regrets. He was always so happy and lively but I was, let's just say I was a bad person.
I sit down and play on my phone until, a few minutes later, I hear him crying. I went over to his room and I hear him say, "Lord show me how to say no to this I know I promised a new life for me here in college but-" he stops. he must've gotten choked up on his words. I barged into there and said "Oh look Alex's going to whine whine whine all night"
WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING
he pushed me away and I punched him causing his nose to bleed. OH FUCK NO PLEASE WHAT HAVE I DONE. I am just doing it for attention. I call him crybaby again and he slams the door on me and I hear him cry louder and what seems like a scream of pain. 

WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED

"Why do you care?" says a voice in my head.

BECAUSE I REGRET IT AND VOICES LIKE YOU ARE CAUSING ME TO DO IT TO HIM MORE

"So? He deserves it for being annoying."

NO, HE DOES NOT!

I shake my head to get out of that trance and try to open the door. He locked it. No way I cant help him what is happening in there?! 

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~Word Count: 1010 Words~

OKAY OMG I JUST POSTED THAT AND I WAS PLANNING TO WRITE AT LEAST 500 WORDS A CHAPTER BUT ONLY THE FIRST ONE AND 1010 WORDS!

On my old account, I did Aphmau stories and only had about 300 words per chapter and they were so cringe I am making a new account and I am SO shocked at how much i have improved. I am going to go die in a pile of stuffed animals now tysm for reading the first chapter, see you probably in five minutes because i am excited YAAAAAAY!