Suicidal ✽ Jamilton ✔

~ Chapter 20 ~

(After all the fluff, ive decided... LET THERE BE LIGHT or as I should say it, LET THERE BE ANGST)
✽~ Alexander's POV ~✽

We introduced Eliza to Hercules and they have been getting along...

A lot.

They just met last week and are already so close. He better not break her heart like John did. 

Anyways right now Thomas and I are on a date. Hes so cheesy and adorable. With his magenta shirt sculpted calves and that perfect bod and oh my gosh take your pants off.
(Sorry not sorry 😂)

"If you insist~" Thomas purred seductively. I blushed. I said that out loud oh my goodness.

The waitress walked up to our table soon after. "Everything alright here?" She said most attention on Thomas kinda making me mad. "Yes. We're just leaving." He replied. "Well," She bagan sliding a note over to Thomas winking at him, "If you need anything I'll be here. Call me cutie."

I immediately got up from my chair and put my hands on the table. "Excuse me I would appreciate it if you would not flirt with my boyfriend on our date." I said getting ready to punch her in the face. " Boyfriend? You are two guys. " she replied disgusted.

I was ready to punch her in the face but I held myself back.

"Could we go home, love I'm not feeling okay." Which was a half lie. I was fine just, having memories. And the waitress being so weird. One star for sure.

" 'Course. "
He put money on the table and led me out as he threw her number in the trash leaving her shocked.

We were in the car driving to th dorm. After a few minutes of being silent, "I wasn't flirting back. I swear." Thomas said.
" Yeah, yeah" I replied still facing my window.

Twas still pretty early in the day. But I didn't really care.

We pulled up just moments after I said that. I slammed the car door on my way out of it with him following me. "I wasn't!" But I kept walking.
"Yes, I know Thomas! But it happens so often its kind of hard to believe! Your so cute when I'm the slob from the Caribbean! Everyone likes you! And I do too. And thats why I am so mad. I love you more then anything else! I want you to know that without everyone else trying to get with you!" I said with now tears forming in my eyes.
We walked in the building and into the elevator to get to our dorm. As we got to our level we walked out the elevator and down the hall.

"I love you too Alex..."

Then I saw Madison. Did he just get here? He was walking past and caught my eye and smirked. "Damn bitch you fine!" He yelled eying Thomas.

"Yeah... You love me a whole lot."
I walked in the room and slammed the door.

I walked to my room and cried. I cried and cried and cried and cried. I should forgive Thomas... I know he loves me I was just having a really bad day. Stressed. People love Thomas because he's like that. A really loveable person I really should forgive him. but at the same time... Should I?

Yes. I will. I came down the stairs and saw Thomas talking to somebody.
I couldn't see who it was. His face was covered by Thomas's. But after a few minutes of them talking the guy caught my eye and smirked. Madison.

Why the fuck was Madison here? He leaned in and kissed Thomas. And not one of them pulled away. I gasped and almost fell down the stairs."W-W-What?" I covered my mouth and Thomas turned around and saw me. "Its not what it looks like Alex I swear."
"Yeah. You swear you love my and now you cheat on me with my fucking bully and now you swear its not what it looks like? We are done I'm going to Eliza's. Goodbye Jefferson."
" Alex -" he began, standing up.
"Its Hamilton to you."
I got a few of my possessions and put them in a bag then walked to Eliza and her sister's dorm.

I deserve this pain but at the same time I don't know...

(Right after the fight before Alex caught Jeffersom and Madison.)
✽~ Thomas's POV ~✽

So right now I am sitting on the couch debating my terrible life decisions. Alex stormed to his room after our fight. "Thomas?" I heard a door open. Was he coming out of his room? "Alex!" But nope. It was James. "What do you want?" I said groaning.

"To say sorry."
"Yeah right. You hear this guy? Man openly bullies my boyfriend talking about how he wants to say sorry" I laughed.

"I am sorry. For bullying him I regret it. We could be friends again. I will never hurt Alex. What'ya say?" He smiled. It sounded sincere.. "Fine." We shook hands and talked for a while. "Remember when we used to date?" He laughed bringing it up. " I don't really like to talk about it James. "

"But what if we could... Date again?" He started. Hell no " No. I can't I have Ale-" Then he leaned in and kissed me. I was so shocked and frozen.

I do remember when we used to date. We were the cool kids with no one knowing about us dating. So I didn't pull back I guess I kinda did miss him. Back in highschool...

-Flashback-

James and Thomas were walking in the park side by side holding each others hands. "Thomas... I like you. More than you know. Your eyes, smile, angelic voice." Then he leaned in to kiss James. They started dating after that and were all lovey dovey until...

-A Few Months Later-

"You cheated!!?" Thomas screamed at his boyfriend as he walked to their apartment. "Baby... I was just drunk..." Madison replied smoothly. "Drunk? That was more then drunk. You aren't even allowed  to drink!! We are officially over. Goodbye! I hate you! I never want to see you again." Thomas declared walking out and slamming the door.

-End Of Flashback-

I then heard a gasp from the stairs. Alex? "W-W-What?" Alex said while I turned around. Madison was smirking. Of fucking course. He tricked me! "Its not what it looks like Alex I swear..." I

"Yeah. You swear you love my and now you cheat on me with my fucking bully and now you swear its not what it looks like? We are done I'm going to Eliza's. Goodbye Jefferson."
He grabbed a few of his things. Fuck no he is not leaving. "Alex-" I began but he cut me off. "Its Hamilton to you."

"Alex let me explain!"

"What is there to explain?! I've cut the line! We are over. I never want to see you again. I should have known not to date a person like you. God, why make me so stupid God." He walked out.

I walked back to my room but not before giving Madison the finger and shoving him out the door.

Alex... What am I going to do without him..? My baby, m cinnamon roll, my life, my everything... Just vanished into thin air all because of a little fight.

I am going to get my Alex back and I am not going to sleep until I do it!

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~ Word Count: 1241 ~

Awww poor Hammy... What do you think is happening next?

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