Suicidal ✽ Jamilton ✔

~ Chapter 22 ~

✽~ Alexander's POV ~✽

I was very sadly alive.
Eliza caught me. I guess I am kinda lucky to be alive right now.

But I don't know.

Enough about my sad depressing life!

I was fidgeting my way throughout my first three classes.

Its been a week since Thomas cheated on me. He has been trying to talk to me all week but I ignore him.

Also when it occurred I never went to Eliza's dorm I didn't go to Hercules' dorm nor anyone's dorm. I just stood outside in the pouring rain.

But I can't do that now because its freezing at nighttime. And there are creepy people out there. But I don't go to anyone because what will they think of me?

What will they do? Unfriend me? I

So now after school I rush to my dorm and lock myself in my room before Thomas is here. And if he is, then I push past him without saying a word.
Smart, right?

But I thought he loved me. He promised. I promised. I shouldn't have to ignore him.
Yet at the same time... I do.
He's not here. Good.
I rush up to my room and close the door. I start on my thousands of pages of writings. I really do write like I'm running out of time.

Then my door opened making me jump.

But nobody said to say anything. And I didn't turn around.

If they have nothing to say then why come in? Like, honestly the fuck?

But if they have something to say name a time and place face to face.

When I finally turned around it was Thomas.

I didn't even think about who it might've been. Its Thomas greaat.
"What?" I said. .
"We have to work together. On a project the teacher assigned us. You left before she addressed it." He said.

I just turned back around to my paperwork he is lying.
I know it.
He has to be.
Right?

✽~ Thomas's POV ~✽

"Yes, we have to work together." I said sitting down on the ground next to him.

"Fine. What first?" Alex replied, shaking.

Then we worked on our History homework awkwardly.

"Ya know this was not the only reason I came..." I said still writing down a problem.

"Why? to say sorry? Like thats gonna work." And I sighed at that. We might be over... Officially. "Well, no actually. I am sorry though... But it was something else..." I said slowly.

"Eliza told me you attempted suicide... Was it my fault? It was. It was it was... I am so sorry I never meant to cheat... Madison kissed me and then I remembered when we used to date and I was just so deep in thought I completely forgot about what was happening."

said fast.

He didn't say anything for a good ten minutes just starting at me.
"S-She told you..?"

"Yeah..."

Then he hugged me. It was so loving and sweet. We hugged and didn't pull back for a while.

"I don't know how long it will be until I fully forgive you and I don't know it we can start dating again yet" He said still not willing to break the hug.

"That's fine, I understand... Just let me stay here by your side. If you would let me inside your heart, Oh let me be apart of your life, in the story they will write someday, let this moment be the first chapter, where you let me stay, that would be enough. We could be enough. That would be enough." I said nuzzling into his neck.

"Your so sweet Thomas."

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~ Word Count: 606 ~

so thats it for now!!

JK NOT THE END OF DE BOOK LOL NEW CHAPTER SOON.