Suicidal ✽ Jamilton ✔

~ Chapter 6 ~

✽~ Eliza's POV ~✽

While I was on my bed, I was thinking about how Laurens cheated on me to think I would be over it by now. No.

So I made a song for him. Here it was;

"I saved every letter you wrote me

From the moment I read them
I knew you were mine
You said you were mine
I thought you were mine

Do you know what Angelica said
When we saw your first letter arrive?
She said

"Be careful with that one, love
He will do what it takes to survive."

You and your words flooded my senses
Your sentences left me defenseless
You built me palaces out of paragraphs
You built cathedrals
I'm re-reading the letters you wrote me
I'm searching and scanning for answers
In every line
For some kind of sign
And when you were mine
The world seemed to

Burn
Burn

You published the letters she wrote you
You told the whole world how you brought
This girl into our bed
In clearing your name, you have ruined our lives
Do you know what Angelica said
When she read what you'd done?
She said
"You have married an Icarus
He has flown too close to the sun."

You and your words, obsessed with your legacy...
Your sentences border on senseless
And you are paranoid in every paragraph
How they perceive you

You, you, you...

I'm erasing myself from the narrative
Let future historians wonder how Eliza
Reacted when you broke her heart
You have torn it all apart
I am watching it
Burn
Watching it burn
The world has no right to my heart
The world has no place in our bed
They don't get to know what I said
I'm burning the memories
Burning the letters that might have redeemed you
You forfeit all rights to my heart
You forfeit the place in our bed
You sleep in your office instead
With only the memories
Of when you were mine
I hope that you burn"

By the time I was finished singing I was crying. but then I heard Angelica clapping "Your voice is so beautiful Eliza." Then she comes over and rubs my back. "Thank you, Angelica. But can I tell you what I heard?" She nods her head and I continue. "Laurens is now dating Lafayette an he is already over me. He sleeps with him and they broke my heart." I said, now crying uncontrollably. "Oh Eliza, You will find someone better than him and he will be so jealous that he will want you back and you'll be like, No,"
She's right I will be stronger. and I will not give him the right to my heart. I hugged her as we stood up and went to school.
When we got there a saw somebody who was bullying Alexander. "HEY! STOP IT!"I yelled as he pushed Alex down. "Yeah? And who are you?" He replies.

He is scary and big. I can't do this. "I am Elizabeth Schuyler and I demand you to stop."

He pushed me down and my head banged against the hard, tile floor. I felt dizzy, I felt nauseous. I got back up, still dizzy. I punched him in the face and helped Alex up. "Eliza! Are you okay?" Was I? "Y-Ye-" That's when everything went black

✽~ Alexander's POV ~✽

"ELIZA!" I yelled, I picked her up and carried her to the nurse. "She got knocked out by... Him I don't know his name." I lied. I told the Nurse and she said,

"Can you tell me what happened?" "Yes. I was getting bullied by this guy I do not know his name and she came in to try and help me." I said. "Okay you may go home for the day."

As I left I went to my dorm and I cried the whole time Thomas was at school. I just need someone to cuddle up next to and hug and kiss and spill out all my emotions too. Everyone I know is currently at school so I just cried the whole time. When Thomas got back I have never run so fast. I ran up to him an gave him a giant hug and kiss. I cried into his shirt and he did not even know why I was crying but with him being the best boyfriend ever, he just let me cry into him while he strokes my hair. When I finally finished balling my eyes out he asked, "Whats wrong, sweetheart?" while carrying me bridal style to my bed.

"Well, I was getting bullied by this kid and Eliza came up to him and punched him in the face for him doing that and he pushed her head down on the hard tile floor. She is at the hospital! School took her there. It was all my fault.

"First of all, WHOEVER BULLIED YOU IS GOING TO BE TAUGHT A LESSON. Second of all, Eliza is a very good friend. And third of all, It was not your fault. He kissed me slowly on the lips and we went to go watch Netflix for the rest of the night."

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~ Word Count: 810 ~