Suicidal ✽ Jamilton ✔

~ Chapter 8 ~

✽~ Alexander's POV ~✽

The middle of spring is not a good time to have school.

It was so sweaty in our classroom and a few people made fans out of their worksheets and some made paper airplanes and threw them at people. I just continued working when two paper airplanes hit me in the head.

"Teacher's pet!"
"Nerd!"

They both said. I turned to see, James Madison and Charles Lee. I rolled my eyes and turned back to my work but they grabbed my paper. I looked at the teacher to see why he was not doing anything about it but he was just smirking.

I sighed and jumped to get my work back from their hands and the bell rang at the perfect time so I rushed out of the classroom. When I walked out of school something terrible happened. Well, nothing different my life is so bad stuff like this is normal. "Hey, Hamilton. Where do you think you're going?" My heart was basically beating out of my chest when I heard Lee and Madison. I continued walking like I could not hear them. 
Was I smart?

Nope.

Next thing I know I was on the ground and my heart was beating out of my chest... Again but it hurt physically. "What a worthless piece of shit" Madison spat, causing Lee to laugh. He kicked me and stepped on me to hold me down while Madison punched me.

"P-Please. Stop-" I managed to get out but failed. I shed a tear but wiped it away quickly before they noticed.
I heard them laughing when I realized I was sobbing. I stopped fast when I noticed. GREAT! I AM A GREAT big crybaby. I continued to cry not caring what they think. I saw Thomas walking out of the doors of school when they stopped hurting me.
"Go kill yourself you don't deserve to live." I heard them say. "Now go get your stupid boyfriend." They pushed me forward as Thomas came toward us.

"Hey guys!" Thomas said happily. I waved and smiled pretending like nothing happened. Whenever he caught stuff like this happening he was too late to actually see it so he always thought I was friends with these bastards. But I don't want him to worry. It is my fault for being so stupid and lonely anyways.

We walked home together and I started to my room. "You okay Alex? You are not normally this quiet." He said worried. "Yeah of c-course." I hated lying to him. He was so dang innocent and adorable. I cannot let him know. But I managed and faked a smile.

"I know that face Lexi." He said picking me up and setting me down on the couch.
I wanted to tell him the truth!
I wanted to spill my heart out to him!

Yet I couldn't.

"Thomas! Please! Let me go!" I said on the verge of crying again. "What is wrong." He said.
"I just- want. To be alone right now." I coughed out.
"No. Tell me."
"No! I can't!"
I kissed him quickly and ran to my room as I slammed and locked the door.

I grabbed my knife out of my backpack.
But I got a text. Hey! I am in the middle of something. Whoever is texting me better be good.

I checked and saw Lafayette texted.

All it said was can we hang out. I denied and said I was busy.

I threw my phone across the room and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. I grabbed the knife again when I heard the front door open and talking.

"Alex! Our friend is here!"

I wonder who the fuck that is.

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~ Word Count: 629 ~

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