Dolan Twins Imagines // 1

Mind // Ethan Dolan

I used the AJ Mitchell song 'Mind' as inspiration because I enjoy that song and have it on constant repeat. I suggest you listen to it, addiction warning tho... ILY -KudosDolan

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We go like oil and water babe

I scream, throwing the fork I had at his face,

"What the heck Ethan?! You do this so much. I give you what you want and all you do is discard it all!" He moves, flinching as the fork pierces the wall beside his head. I slam my fist into the wall, stomping out and ignoring his feeble pleads.

No, I can't understand why I need you; Like I come back to life when I breathe you

I calm down, breathing deeply as I walk out of the apartment. Ethan follows me,

"Y/N! Wait, please! I need you." I turn, shaking my head ever so slightly,

"No Ethan. I need you. I needed  you and you weren't there. I get so crazy when you're around and I'm happier. It's always so hard to face the fact that you're killing me from the inside out." With that, I turn and dash away, hoping and praying that he wasn't following me.

I admit it; That I can't be without you I'm twisted; I don't know how I got so dependent; And I don't even mind, mind, mind

I knock on the door lightly, expecting no answer. I was prepared to walk away when the door swung open. Facing me, dull eyed and fatigued looking, was Ethan. I'd mentally prepared myself a speech, forgetting it all after seeing his distraught demeanor. His lips quivered,

"Y-Y/N?" I nod,

"Ethan, I-I can't be without you. I need you. You have my mind on the brink. I can function without you. I don't understand why I put my everything into the hands of one person, but I can't help it. I don't care about the fact that it's wrong, it's the fact that I can't live. Not without you, no matter how bad things get." I fight the buckle in my knees, stumbling forward as he pulls me into a hug. He rubs circles on my back,

"I need you too. I didn't sleep for that past week and Grayson went on a 2 week trip with his girlfriend. I've been alone and stuck in my own head for so long. Please, tell me you're coming back." I nod into his chest, unable to muster up enough strength to speak. He quietly cheered, kissing the top of my head. I sighed, knowing that I was being sucked into his charming black hole of emptiness. I fall for it every time, but it's okay... because I need  him.

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Ok,
So, as most of you probably know, the twins are on a TBD hiatus. They're gone on a mental health break and I'm proud of them for finally putting themselves first. I would be lying if I said it didn't hurt. They got me through so much and, to hear that they're gone broke me in half. I cried for hours, not knowing what else to do. It was amazing to realize that 2 people could do so much damage. In no way is this supposed to negative, it's just a dumb rant because I'm sad. They were so important and I haven't said much for a day. If your really know me, you would understand why it's an issue. But, honestly, I'm a bipolar mess of emotions ATM and this is kinda what inspired this imagine [as well as the song; give it a listen]. LOL, rant over, bye.

-KudosDolan