Dolan Twins Imagines // 1

Used To Be // Ethan Dolan

I used the AJ Mitchell song 'Used To Be'. I think I have a slight obsession... IDK, but take a listen. Enjoy, -KudosDolan

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I've been walking; I've been talking; To every cute girl I see

*Ethan's P.O.V*
I stuck my hands in my hoodie pocket, walking quietly. As I entered the park, a girl that looked similar to my ex Y/N was sitting on the bench. I thought for a fleeting second that it could be her, so I walked over. She looked up and, though looking like Y/N, her eyes were different. Same color, but they was something about the sparkle. It was different. Her smile reminded me so much of Y/N,

"Hi." Her voice drew me out of my thoughts. I smiled at the ground,

"Hey. Um, so I just t-thought you looked really pretty so." She giggled at her hands. Smiling back at me, the shimmer in her eyes dulled,

"Thanks. You're cute. Your girlfriend is really lucky." She had the same look Y/N has when she felt bad about herself. My eyes flickered across her face, my thoughts pulling me closer and closer to the edge of insanity. I nodded,

"Thanks. Have a nice day." She waved shyly and I walked away, seeing another girl swinging alone on the swing set. I breathed deeply and approached her.

I've been searching; I've been looking; For the girl you used to be

I walked at a steady pace back to my apartment. I was looking down, not paying attention to anything but my reeling thoughts. Someone bumped into me and I caught them as they fell. I was looking into brown, gold flecked, eyes that stunned me. I stayed in that position, studying this girl's face. She smiled and a million memories of Y/N flashed through my mind at light speed. I let the girl up,

"You remind me a lot of my ex- girlfriend." I blurted it before I thought about it. She looked confused yet flattered at the same time. I scurried away and ran the rest of the way to my apartment.

'Cause before all this; You were loving me, hating me, telling me you're my baby

*Flashback (1 month)*

I was sitting on the couch, cuddling Y/N. She was sound asleep against me. I kissed her forehead and carried her to her room. As her arms released my neck, I laid her down and she whispered,

"I love you." I smiled slightly, kissing her forehead again,

"I love you too." She smiled in her sleep and rolled over. I covered her in her covers and closed the door behind me. The next morning, she wrapped her arms around my shoulders from behind as I was going through my drawers. Her familiar scent of vanilla filled all of my senses. I turned and kissed her lips chastely. She giggled and bounced out. After a few hours, I got up and stretched. I walked out to the living room and, as soon as I walked in, Y/N got up. She left and threw me a dirty look while she was at it. I followed her, hugging her as she sat. She shoved me off,

"Get off of me." I raised an eyebrow,

"Babe? What-" She scoffed,

"Don't babe me. Just leave me alone." With that, she walked out of the house, slamming the door behind her.

*Flashback End*

I want that girl you used to be; I want that girl you used to be

I sat in my room, scrolling through every single photo of Y/N I had. I sat up and tears streamed all across my face. A picture of her and I on the sidewalk came next. It was a collage of the pictures we took that day. One was her kissing my cheek and me smiling like an idiot. Another was one of her on my back and us both smiling widely. In the last one, my arm was around her shoulders and she was smiling at the ground while I was doing the same to the camera. More tears cascaded over my face leaving wet trails of need. I needed her, but I couldn't have her. I would only ever want the girl she used to be. The her now hated me. The girl she used to be made me feel loved, wanted, everything I wanted to feel but couldn't. I wanted the girl she used to be.

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A/N,
Suckish one, but OKAY! Another one soon, I might do another part to Nobody Gotta Know because i'm having a lot of fun writing those. Enjoy, thassit,

-KudosDolan