Dolan Twins Imagines // 1

I'm Done Caring // Ethan Dolan

Suicide is NEVER  the answer. Just know that, if you are going through this, someone is always there to talk with. You ALWAYS  have someone. -KudosDolan

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I held the pills in my hand, contemplating whether I should really do it or not. My boyfriend was peacefully sleeping in my bed, completely unaware of what was happening. I sighed, kissing his forehead,

"I love you." I stepped in front of my vanity and sat down. I faced Ethan and held the pills up to my mouth. Before I could take them, he flipped over and opened his eyes,

"What are you doing babe?" He rubbed his eyes. I shoved all 6 pills in my mouth as he uncovered his eyes. I downed half a water bottle and held my head, already feeling slightly dizzy. He bolted up,

"What did you just do?!" He pressed his fingers into my neck, trying to force the pills back up. I coughed, forcing them back down,

"No! Let me go!" I fought him, but he pinned me down and gave me the Heimlich. I kept my mouth closed, swallowing as the pills started to come up. Ethan's eyes watered,

"No. Please don't. Why?" He kept me from squirming. I shook my head. He tried to get my mouth open,

"Open your mouth! Spit them out!" He failed at his first attempt. He pressed his hands down on my stomach forcefully. I coughed and he shoved his index and middle finger into my mouth. I choked and he flipped me over the side of my bed. He kept his fingers gagging me and he pressed on my stomach again. I felt everything coming up and, soon, it was all over my floor. I thought I was done, but more brownish liquid spewed from my mouth. Ethan lifted me back up,

"Why would you do this?! Why can't you just talk to me?!" Tears streamed down his face. I held back my own tears,

"I'm done caring Ethan. About being what everyone wants. You want me to be the perfect girlfriend, my parents want the perfect daughter, everyone expects perfection from me and I-I CAN'T GIVE IT!" I broke down, tears spilling all over my face. I gagged again and more substance came from my mouth and all over my sheets. Ethan moved,

"We need a doctor." He grabbed his phone. I reached out and gripped his wrist,

"No, please. Don't. Let me die." I gripped his wrist tighter. He shook his head sadly,

"I can't do that. Without you, I'm as good as dead myself." He ripped his arm from me and dialed the hospital.

~Hospital Room~

I was laying on a white bed, in a white room. It was all generic. Light was being flashed in my eyes. I squinted, bolting upwards,

"Where's my boyfriend?!" I flung the blankets away. A female doctor held me down,

"Sweets, what's your boyfriend's name?" She pushed me down. I gave her a hard stare,

"Ethan. Ethan Dolan." I got up again. 2 more doctors grabbed me. I fought against them and tried running. They laid me back down,

"We'll get your boyfriend for you." One smiled at me. I flipped over on my stomach and cried into my pillow, refusing everything the doctors did. I heard my door open and my bed dipped. A hand was placed on the small of my back,

"Babe, please. Just cooperate." I turned my head up to Ethan and hugged him tightly. He rubbed my hair,

"Why didn't you just talk to me?" He kissed the top of my head. I struggled against my tears,

"I don't know. I d-didn't think that it would be this hard to deal with. Everyone wants the perfect person out of me, but I can't be perfect!" I cried into his shirt. He rocked slightly,

"You are perfect. You're you and that's all anyone wants." He kissed my forehead. I nodded. He sat in a chair across the room as the doctors came in to check me.

~Back At The House~

Ethan laid down next to me. He sniffed my hair,

"Nice shampoo." He put his arm around my waist. I smiled slightly,

"Thanks." I made myself comfortable as he put his chin on top of my head. He leaned down to look at me,

"I love you." He kissed my lips. I fluffed his hair,

"Love you too."

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