Love and War

semi

i look up from Colby's shoulder and look at the empty spot where the bed used to be. i let go of Colby and walk over to it. i put my back against the wall and slide down so im on the floor. i stroke the floor with my hand and i stare deeply at it 

"this exact place is where my best friend died" i smile at the thought of all the memories of me and sam together. the time we played basketball, to the time we kissed, the time we went to the dance as 'friends'. when we would have sleepovers, spend holidays, birthdays, every day together. sam was the only person who knew all of my deep dark secrets.

 cause two cant keep a secret if one of them is dead 

cause two cant keep a secret if one of them is dead 

cause two cant keep a secret if one of them is dead

cause two cant keep a secret if one of them is dead 

cause two cant keep a secret if one of them is dead

cause two cant keep a secret if one of them is dead 

the words played over and over in my head our secrets are no longer secrets there just my secrets and all of his secrets we will never know. i look at Colby who is staring at we with tears flowing down his cheeks.

"you can never replace my best friend but you can try and fill the void" 

"i know and i will try my best" he crawls to me and pecks me on the lips. we sit against the wall holding hand looking at the floor of where the bed had sat the had held my alive and dead best friend. i rested my head on Colby's shoulder and closed my eyes thinking back to the dance in 8th grade are semi-formal the last dance of the year before high school so just last year. 

(back in time to the dance)

 it was friday after school everyone was excited about the dance and everyone was going whether they were alone or with someone they weren't going to miss it. the school had just gotten out. sam and i were on the bus i sat on the inside he was on the out. i was staring out the window when he popped the question. "will you go to semi-formal with me but you know as 'friends'?" i turn and look at him in the eyes he had a slight smile and he was nervous for sure.  "why not it'll be fun" his slight smile grew i gave him a smirk then proceeded to look out the window and watch the scenery as we drove down the road to where i would get off at the end. sam let me out of the seat and we said are good byes.

  i ran inside and screamed i was so excited. i jump up and down wishing my mom was there but she wasn't she was far far away. no one was there actually. i ran away from my people because i wasnt happy. my dad gave me a credit card to use of his because he trusted me.i took it and ever since ive used t to bye stuff i need my dad knew i used it still and he didnt mind he just let me do my thing i only used his card for food clothes rent and essentials. like pads, toothpaste, tp... you get the point he has always put money in his account so I could pay for the things i needed. i was independent my dad found out where i went to so he sent me a letter. he said he would pay me 200$ a week till i was 18 then i had to get a job and he would no longer help me stay away from home. 

i ran upstairs and grabbed a dress from the closet i  ran and showered, did my makeup and hair then got dressed i was ready 45 minuted before i had to be their so i had time i grabbed my phone and put in earbuds and walked to the school.

RIP baby boy RIP

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