Love and War

My best chapter yet...

(this chapter will be a little different from the rest... Enjoy I guess i dont know if i want to start this off good or bad so u choice and read that beginning ) 

Dark beginning: The day was new but muggy. The house silent as ever and the world as calm as we know it. Dark heavy clouds covered the sky, covering the sun, its brightness, and warmth of its rays. Rain pummeled down from up above.  Thunder roared, rattling all the building. lightning flashed, lighting up the dark sky for a split second. The storm slowly moved away, you could still hear it in the distance though. with a more quiet surrounding, the house settled and became silent once more. Everyone in the house lay asleep except one restless soul... Colby

Bright beginning: It was the perfect start to a day, the clouds had cleared up and the sunlight peaked up over the distant mountains. Rays of light shined through the windows, making them glisten. the house was settled and silent, waiting for someone to wake up and start the day. little did everyone else know, someone in the house was already wide awake... Colby

He never slept a wink, too worried, too stressed, too sad... to even think about sleep. All night long, he sat in her bed staring at the ceiling, thinking, wondering about anything and everything on his mind, especially Y/N... his own world, his own girl,  just took a crashing. 

he sat there still, in the same position he was in all night, sprawled out on his back staring straight up at the blank white ceiling. His headphones in both his ears blasting his most emotional playlist. the room enveloped him with cold darkness. The blinds and curtains shut tight, A/C on high and her blankets that still smelt exactly like her, covered him to his chest. 

The boy lay still in her bed, tears slipping down his cheeks as he gets lost deeper and deeper into his thoughts. she consumed his mind, every thought had to do with the pretty girl who now lay still in a wooden box buried 6 feet deep, where its dark, cold and lonely.

Eyes flickering, heavy and red. the boy finally sits up leaning against the wall. He thought about getting up and going to the bathroom... But he just couldnt face the place where she had ripped herself from this world knowing she would break him if she did.  

His broke loose from his thought for a split second, looking at the time on his phone and to skip the song playing. He slowly got up, tiptoed to the bathroom door, and creaked it open. For a little while, he just stared into the darkness, long enough for his eyes to adjust. in one swift yet weak move he flicked the light on, examining the room. He steps in shutting the door and turning to the mirror to see himself. His eyes dull, skin tear stained red, hair a mess and bags right under the eyes. 

he glances at the floor, the place it all went down, literally... its still stained slightly with a bit of discoloration. he couldnt take it, he snaps his head the other way and steps over the stain. he does what he needed to do and then gets out as quickly as possible. the memories, the sight, the reminder that bathroom holds is torturing him. 

The boy lays back down on the bed, more tear flowing out as he gets flashes of that day... words echoed through his head as pictures of the incident come and go.

BLOOD

RAZOR

BLADE

LIFELESS

GIRLFRIEND

CUT'S

CUT'S

CUT'S

CUT'S

CUT'S

CUT'S

cut's... too many cuts's, way to may cut's...

1 cut...2 cut...3 cut... 4, the blood had started dripping from the tub to the floor. 

HELPLESS 

UNCONSCIOUS 

DULL 

WEAK

PALE

SIRENS 

MEN

TEARS

doctor calls an emergency, shes lost a lot of blood, the place looks like a murder scene.. an hour later, the doc walks over with a sour face 'excuse me for the words im about to say, Im sorry for your loss,' the boy just starts collapsing, his own world his own girl... just took a crashing, saying to himself that its his fault and that he let it up 'baby i thought you made a promise you would never cut'  

breaking from his trance colbys head snaps to the dresser. instantly he has a new thought,a thought that pleases yet displeases him,  though he's thought about it before he never planned on doing it. He needed to think about it more. 

As the rest of the house slowly awoke, colbys depression rolled away with their yawns. 

SOOOOOO BASICALLY WANTED TO TRY SOMETHING DIFFERENT SHOUTOUT TO @lyncthewicked he's an amazing writer and was my inspiration for this chapter!!!!!!!!!!

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