BTS Jungkook x reader

Chapter40: hope, just hope.

Jungkook's POV..

I feel like shit.

It's frustrating that I couldn't be in the interview we have because i got a fever.

After that day i felt dizzy in the practice room, the same night, my body temperature went up as i was about to sleep.

I feel a little bit better knowing that it's probably the reason why I almost fainted rather than anything else.

The guys are in the BigHit building right now and their getting interviewed by a radio show in (c/n).

And here i am, sitting in the dorm's living room, wrapped up in a knitted blanket with warm hot chocolate in my hand, after i had turned on the radio show the guys will be interviewed in on my laptop.

My mom just called and asked if i was okay and if i needed her to come to seoul.

I really wanted to see her because i felt an overwhelming sense of longing when i called her.

I resisted saying yes when she asked if i needed her to come to take care of me, mostly because I didn't want her to worry or tire herself out and coming all the way here while i can manage by myself and the members are taking care of me really well too.

I took a sip of my hot chocolate as I listened carefully to the host reading army's tweets and questions.

I nod unconsciously as namjoon answers most of them in English as i try to grasp onto a few words to understand what he's talking about.

Then the host mentioned how the viewers can call and talk to the members directly, he gave the phone number where they can participate.

After a less than a minute break, they started taking calls from armys that are watching.

I smile softly as i hear a girl fangirling as soon as the guys greeted her.

She asked if they could say 'i love you' in the language that she speaks but i think it sounded nothing like how she said it.

I couldn't stop laughing until i heard a very familiar voice that had stopped all the noise i was making abruptly just so i can hear better and make sure my ears are not deceiving me.

It's probably someone else and it sounds different because it's a phone call.

But deep inside of me, I'm not even convinced with the explanation i came up with to slow down my heart beats that started to pick up their pace.

So l unknowingly stayed quiet and didn't move a single muscle as i wait for her to say something that confirms that she isn't who i think -more like know- she is.

"Umm... my name's y/n." she said shyly.

My eyes widen as i lean forward towards my laptop.

I never so badly wished that i was there.

I know I wouldn't be able to say anything to her or talk to her like anything but a fan like everyone else.

Nobody knows that we're talking except the two of us.

Everyone thinks she's one of the people i met once and forgot about.

No one knows how hard we're trying to conceal it.

She probably doesn't even know how much I'm not saying or showing.

I really want to tell her honestly how all this feels to me.

But it's never this easy, there's a lot of things i have to consider before doing anything.

So for now, keeping it this way is for the better.

"Alright y/n, what would you like to say to bts?!" The host said cutting my line of thoughts.

I leaned towards the laptop as i readjusted my blanket around me.

"Umm.. I don't know really... i really appreciate the hard work they put into whatever they do." She answers hesitantly at first but then the words came out of her mouth so effortlessly and softly that it makes me miss hearing her talk.

I didn't even realize i was unthinkingly smiling as she talks.

"Although i have already met you guys, I'd do almost anything to see you again." She said and it sounded like it came out directly from her heart without a thought.

I finally found something to kinda describe what i feel, i too would do almost anything to see her again.

Thinking about it makes me realize that i miss her even though it's only been a week.

But it also made me realize how i feel and that i don't know what to do about it.

Whatever she said didn't show if she felt whatever i feel.

I honestly don't even know what I'm feeling.

I just can't help but smile when i get her text and frown when i realize that I replied long after.

My heart beats fast when i talk to her, I don't even know what'll happen when i see her face-to-face my heart will probably be out of my rib cage.

I didn't notice that the call ended and I didn't hear what she said before she hung up, hoping she didn't say anything.

"Ok guys, this is the end of our interview with bts, hope you had fun listening, and bts thank you for being on the show it was an honor." As the host said that i was literally jumping off the couch with the blanket wrapped around me with the mug still in my hand before i set it on the kitchen counter.

They said they'll be right back after doing this interview so i paced in front of the dorm's door as i waited for their arrival.

I kept walking back and forth for a few minutes and then i ran to my room to get my phone.

I grabbed it off the desktop and ran back to the living room and started pacing again in front the door.

I opened the conversation i had with y/n and found that she had texted me asking why I wasn't in the interview with the members almost half an hour ago which means before she even called in the radio show.

I didn't know what to type but i knew I wanted to talk to her.

Maybe hearing voice triggered something in me that made me click on her contact name and press the call button without a single second of contemplation.

To be continued..

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