BTS Jungkook x reader

Chapter43: her.

That song suits the story soooo well😭😭

Jungkook's POV..

"So you're saying that you two have been in touch since she left..?"Jimin said and it sounded more like a statement than a question.

I nodded as i dug my chopsticks into the ramen cup.

I tried to cover it up or change the subject but he already knew I wasn't telling the truth.

We've been living together far too long for him not to know when I'm lying which i rarely do and when i do, it never works.

I usually choose not to keep things from jimin or from my members in general, but trying to avoid telling the truth was my first instinct, and i feel bad for it.

"Do you like her?" Jimin said looking at me all jokes aside after gulping down his ramen soup.

I stopped my hand movements and just started thinking of an answer that i, myself, didn't even know.

It's a question i ask myself too, i realized.

Jimin hummed indicating that he's waiting for me to say something, that's when I realized that I've only been thinking and still not knowing the answer.

"I don't know." i said not looking directly at him and resuming my hand movements which are just stirring my already cold ramen with the chopsticks.

"Now that i know that you guys are in touch, i think it just proves that you do." He said with a shrug at the end.

I looked at him in confusion like I'm asking him for further explanation.

"You probably text her more often than you text us." He said jokingly and laughed a little before stopping suddenly when realizing I wasn't.

"Well.. you really seemed to care for her when she was here, I don't know if it was because you feel guilty about whatever happened before she ended up in our dorm, but you really did make an effort to take care of her. You even made her cereal even though she's capable of making some for herself." He explained and my eyes widen when i thought of how much he'd noticed most of which I didn't.

"Well.. i just thought that she'd be shy and timid to do that herself so i did it instead." I came up with an explanation right on the spot and i was proud of it even though I'm trying to convince myself that that was the case.

"I think you do." He said looking at me with a genuine smile.

"Do what?" I knew what he meant but i was a little unsure that i had to ask.

"You like her." He said simply as his smile widening at my shocked expression.

As he said that my heart started beating even faster, so much that i can feel it echoing inside me even though i knew what he meant, actually hearing it was a whole other different story.

I didn't realize that my eyes widened until they burned slightly begging me to blink,

Not because of what he said and how he said it, but because of this overwhelming feeling of certainty and realization, and it scared me how accurate what jimin said is.

I didn't say anything because I didn't think i could as my mind was too busy with the thoughts that hit me with realization as hard as puberty did.

Jimin chuckled causing me to look at him as he spoke "so since when?" He said excitement and anticipation evident in his voice.

"I don't know." I said my hand unconsciously flying to run my fingers through my hair to push it backwards.

"What do you know, jungkook?" He said laughing.

I shrugged as my brain subconsciously only focused on the subject it had at hand...y/n.

Now I'm more than a hundred percent sure that I won't be able to get her out of my head even if i try to distract myself from it.

I remembered that time when her friend daehyun came to fetch her suddenly coincidentally when I started getting used to her presence.

I sighed as i recalled how good it felt to have her in my arms, like that time.

I always try to avoid thinking about it because i know that if i did my feelings would most likely get out of hand and I preferred to have things under control more often than not.

And the part after that..

Where I almost let all my feelings pour out before even knowing what they were.

It's like i suddenly lost control over my actions for a moment.

The right moment.

The only thing i regret was not doing it before being interrupted.

But I'm sure it's for the better,

Maybe it's just me.

For her, it might only be a memory that's rarely on the back of her mind.

I know I shouldn't get my hopes up but I can't help but do just that.

"You should tell her, jungkook." Jimin said seriously as he got up to throw away his empty ramen cup.

"I don't know if i should." I said in a low voice like i was unsure.

"I think you should, that way you'll get it off your chest and at the same time, you'll know if she feels the same way." He said with a shrug at the end as if saying it's only a suggestion and the final decision is up to me.

He walked towards where i sat on the edge of the bed and tapped my shoulder supportively.

"I'm gonna nap a little before we have to go practice, try not to dwell on it too much and do what your gut tells you." He said as he walked to the door then waving as he left before shutting it behind him.

I sighed deeply as i put my half eaten ramen on the little table by the tv.

I took my phone out and i had to try a few times to unlock it with my fingerprint except my fingers are just moving on their own accord.

As soon as i unlocked it, it took me a few minutes to decide whether to text her or call her.

Then i thought a call would be more straightforward and I wouldn't hesitate so much if i just spoke instead of typing.

I tapped on her initials on my contacts' list and immediately started pacing around the room when it started ringing.

I grimaced as i thought of the possibility that she might be sleeping or the possibility that I'm gonna interrupt something.

But before i could think any more her soft croaky voice cut my line of thoughts.

"Hello?"

To be continued..

I've been so busy lately and I'll probably be busy for another month.

I will try to update whenever i can so there's nothing to worry about.

I will make sure to inform you when I won't be able to post.

Thank you so much for everything💗