I Feel Empty(Kim Namjoon)

dream relem

Since there were seven of them. Only Jin was able to go in the ambulance, since he is the oldest, and everyone wanted Jin to go. Through the rush to the hospital, Jin was praying that Namjoon would be okay. "Don't leave me. Please, Namjoon, wake up. Don't leave me, my love."He began to cry.

They arrived at the hospital, and Namjoon was rushed in medical care. Jin could only wait. Wait for the love of his life to wake up..

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While Namjoon was unconscious  he was in a dream-sort-of state. He couldn't move. He couldn't hear anything happening around him. He could only see and hear, what was happening in his dream. Or nightmare.

"Hello?"asked Namjoon. "Is anyone here? Where am I. Why am I here?"

"You, Kim Namjoon, are in a dream relem." Said a voice.

"Who are you? Yelled Namjoon. "Show yourself"

At that very moment,a figure appeared. A dark angel, a demon, of sorts.

"Kim Namjoon. I am the god  of Death."

"So, the devil?"questioned Namjoon.

"No, not the devil. Do you know why you are here.?"

Namjoon shook his head 'no'

"You are here because you are scared of yourself. You think that they only way to free yourself is to tourcher your body. By starving yourself, and cutting."

"I don't understand. How are you here. I don't believe in gods. I'm an atheist. And even if you are real, or just a pigment of my imagination, how would you even know about my life? Or what I do with it?"

"Oh Namjoon. For a man with an IQ of 148. You are really having a hard time understanding what you've gotten yourself into."

Namjoon just stood there. Puzzled. "What's your name?"

"I am here to teach you a lesson. But I am not in the mood. So I will use my time here to make your dream relem. And the living relem, a living hell. As for my name, I don't have one. But you may call be  Muerte ".

Namjoon just stood there, cunfussed and scared for what might come next.
He finally got the courage to ask, "What do you mean 'making my life into a living hell'? How?"

"It's simple really, as you can see, I am your demon, and if you look closely into my face, you will understand, what I mean be 'your demon'."

Namjoon was to scared to look into the demons face, so he just bowed his head.

"As for making your life a living hell. That's the easy part. The hard part is making you learn. For as long as you are in this dream relem, you with suffer, you will feel pain, you will see everything that you fear the most."

This made Namjoon tremble. "What about my living world? What will happen to me then?"

" it depends really. If you live. You human body is in the hospital, since you went unconscious at your concert. And since your been cutting and starving yourself, you have a very little change of living. And if you sleep or die in the dream relem, you die in real live. If you manage to work up the strength you wake your self up, you will live. But you will still suffer.  You will suffer until, something caused by you, changes in your life."

"Will you be with me?"

"Of course I'll be with you, I am you."

Suddenly a bright light flashed in Namjoon's eyes. Causing him to go blind, but only for a few seconds. After the light the demon vanished. Namjoon just stood there. "Muerte" he thought. Then he remembered, Muerte is Spanish for  Death.

Suddenly, everything was crashing down. His mind. The floor, which he was standing on, fell into an oblivion.  He could only hope for something, anything to wake him. Suddenly he crashed onto a dirt floor. He was in pain. Then all of a sudden, he was punched, kicked, and pushed down, by some one. Kim Dae hyung. 

"Hello, you little cunt." Dae hyung said. "Nice to finally meet in person, after such a long time."

Namjoon could only tremble, as he was beat. All he could remeber, was when he was younger, being beat, mentally and visually. He remembered the cold dark basement, which he was trapped there, for weeks. Then started to cry.

"What's the matter? Is the the big baby crying because he's getting beat. It's no wonder your mother never returned after her 'business trip' I big cry baby, like you would drive anyone insane."

Then, the floor crashed again, and Dae hyung vanished. And Namjoon just laid there bleeding and crying.

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Real world

"Help"cried Jin, "Something is happening with Namjoon."

As Dae hyung was beating Namjoon in the dream relem, Namjoon was yelling and screaming in the real world, only uncounsoius. The doctors had no idea what was going on with Namjoon, so they have him anesthetic drugs to calm him dawn. But that made Jin more upset. He thought, if Namjoon needs drugs to calm down, something must really be going on in his head. And when Namjoon woke up, he was gonna find out.

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Dream relem

"No. No. No. No."yelled Namjoon." Stop please you can't do this to me. Not again."He cried as he was being thrown into a dark basement, like the one from is childhood. But in this basement he was stuck, with the memory of  Dae hyung, threating to kill Namjoon, and that no one would even notice. He cried and cried. Suddenly the demon Muerte, appeared.

"Muerte"Namjoon whimpered. "Please help me. I can't keep going on with this nightmare. I can't take it anymore. Help me."

"You can only help yourself. Especially  in the dream relem. Any thing can happen." And just like that, Muerte vanished into thin air.

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Jin never left Namjoon's side, after the concert. It's been 2 weeks and Namjoon was still uncounsoius. He could only pray that Namjoon would be okay.

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I'm writing this while at a party, I got bored so I decided to write this part. It took me a while to write this bc I knew it would be cunfussing to some readers. So I tried to simplify it as much as I can...thx for reading😘😘