"NO!!NOOO!!NAMJOON"
Namjoon had jumped. But luckly for him, he landed on the giant police air bag. He wasnt hurt, on the outside,at least. But he was still hurting on the inside. He got off the air bag. He started breathing heavily, he felt dizzy, and started feeling not well. He started to have a panick attack.
By this time, Jin was already ran back down, and was no running torawds Namjoon. Who was currently sobbing.
"Namjoon."cried Jin. "You promised me, back in the hospital that you wouldn't do anything like that. I'm sorry I kissed Top. I knew it was a mistake the second it happened. I know your hurt, and I know that it's my fault. But I just want you to forgive me. It doesn't have to be today. Nor tomorrow. But some day. When your ready."
Namjoon was still having trouble breathing, but he manage to say:
"I" *cough* cough* "forgive" *cough* "you". Namjoon kept coughing, and Jin saw that Namjoon was about to pass out from anxiety. So he quickly signaled over the police to come get him.
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( 1 year and 6 months later)
It took a while, but Namjoon got better. He still sometimes got suicidal thoughts, but he told all his feelings to either Jin, and therapist. When Namjoon finally told his story, and what had happened to him, Jin felt as if he was there because when someone he loves is hurting, Jin hurts as well. And Namjoon was improving, he has been more active and talkative.
But he has also has been having nightmares. But hasn't said anything to Jin nor to his therapist about them.
But one night, Namjoon was screaming in his sleep, Jin, Jimin, Yoongi, Jungkook, Tae, and Hobi, ran to his room to see what was happening. Namjoon was sweating and crying.
"I thought you loved me!"Namjoon cried.
Jin went up to him, sat on his bed, and hugged gently, until he calmed down. It took a while but Namjoon did calm down.
"There, there, Namjoonnie. It's okay. Everything is okay."whispered Jin, in a soft voice. Namjoon settled down, upon hearing Jin's soft voice.
But it wasn't enough, Namjoon still, kicked, and twitched. So Jin, Jimin, Jungkook, Tae, Yoongi and Hobi started to sing.
SEA
"Somehow I walked and came to this sea
From this sea I look at the beach
Countless grains of sand and the fierce wind
I’m still looking at the desert
I want to have the sea, I gulped you all down
But I get even thirstier than before
Is everything I know truly the sea
Or is it a blue desert
I don’t know I don’t know
If I’m feeling the waves in this moment or not, yeah
I don’t know I don’t know
If I’m still chased by the sandstorm or not, yeah
I don’t know, I don’t know
Is it a sea, is it a desert, is it hope, is it despair
Is it real, is it fake, shit
I know I know
That I will
I know I know
Overcome my trials
I know I know
It exposes me
What I rely on
Think positively, swallow*
Even if I’m anxious, even if a desert
It’s the beautiful Namib Desert
Where there is hope, there are trials
Where there is hope, there are trials
Where there is hope, there are trials
Where there is hope, there are trials
Where there is hope
You know you know you know yeah
Where there is hope
You know you know you know yeah
I thought the sea was here but it turned out to be a desert
Small company’s idols with nothing special was my second name
Countless of times edited out from broadcasts
Someone’s fill-in, our dream
Some people said our company was small so we wouldn’t be famous
I know I know, I know it too
Even back when the seven of us struggled to sleep in one room
The trust before sleep that tomorrow would be different
The mirage of the desert, I can see its shape but I couldn’t grab it
I pray that I will survive in this endless desert
I pray that it is not the reality
At last I grabbed the mirage and it became reality
The desert I was once afraid of became that sea by our blood, sweat and tears
But what are these fears among all the happiness
We all know too well this place was originally a desert
I don’t want to cry
I don’t want to rest
(No, how about resting just for a little bit?
No, no, no)
I don’t want to lose
It was originally a desert
(Then let them know everything
We have to achieve more)
Where there is hope, there are trials
Where there is hope, there are trials
Where there is hope, there are trials
Where there is hope, there are trials
Where there is hope
You know you know you know yeah
Where there is hope
You know you know you know yeah
Ocean, desert, the world
Everything is the same thing
Different name
I see ocean
I see desert
Everything is the same thing but with different name
It’s life again
Where there is hope
You know you know you know yeah
Where there is hope
You know you know you know yeah
Where there is hope, there is despair
Where there is hope, there is despair
Where there is hope, there is despair
Where there is hope, there is despair
We have to despair, for all of those trials
We have to despair, for all of those trials"
* Ok yes, I got the English lyrics for "Sea". I'm like obsessed with this song right now.( Like who isn't) Which is probably why 'Namjoon' is singing so much. But yea❤
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