I Feel Empty(Kim Namjoon)

Lisa

Namjoon layed there, on his pillow. Thinking. Thinking about everything. Evaluating everything in his life. Every thing he has. Everything he has had. Namjoon wanted to talk to someone. He needed to talk to some one. But who. He couldn't tell Jin, or anyone for that matter. He knew if he told anyone, they would tell Jin.

Then he thought of someone.

"What if I call her?" Namjoon said to himself. "No she'll never answer. She hates me. If i tell her my problems, she will only make them worse. But she's the one that actually listens to me.''

He looked out of the window, thinking of what dicesion he should make.

"Fuck it. I'm just going to call her."

Namjoon grabbed his phone and started dialing the number.

Her: hello?

Namjoon: hello, Lisa

Lisa: Yes. Who is this? Namjoon, is this you?

Namjoon: Yes, it's me. Namjoon. Look, I know your probably still mad at me, but can we talk. Please?

Lisa: of course I'm still mad at you. You kiss my best friend, Jennie. Me and her aren't mad at each other any more. But I'm still mad at you.

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( a couple years ago)

"Okay, Namjoon. See you later" Lisa said, kissing Namjoon. While Jennie watched from her car.

"Bye, my queen. See you later." He said leading Lisa out of his apartment.

A couple minutes later

Namjoon heard a knock on his door. He got up to open it. And saw Jennie.

"Oh, hey Jennie. Lisa isn't here, she left a couple minutes ago."

"Oh I know. I'm not here for Lisa."

"Then why are you here?"

Jennie leaned in, and kissed Namjoon. Namjoon tried to push away, but Jennie wouldn't let him. She just pushed him into the apartment.

Then Lisa came in.

"Hey Namjoon, I think left my hair here, have you seen--it.?"

"Lisa"said Namjoon

"Namjoon, what the hell is going on here. Why are with Jennie? Jennie why are you here?"

"I don't know. Namjoon called me, telling me that He wanted to tell me something, but when I got here, he just started kissing me" Jennie lied

"Are you fucking kidding me Namjoon ?!"

"Lisa, she's lying. I didn't call her. I don't even have her phone number."

"Namjoon, I'm not stupid. So stop lying. I see the way you look at her. Whenever she hangs out with us. "

"Lisa, I don't like her. I never did. She came here. And started kissing me. I tried to pull away, but she wouldn't let me."

"Its true Lisa, I came on to him"Jennie confessed.

"My queen, I would never do anything that would hurt you."

"Never call me your queen, ever again." Lisa stormed off in frustration.

Jennie left too. And Namjoon layed on the wall crying.

End of flashback
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Present time

Lisa: namjoon, what do you want?

Namjoon: I just want to talk

Lisa: about?

Namjoon: I don't know what to do

Lisa: what do you mean

Namjoon: I can't sleep, I can't eat, I have to cry myself to sleep. I just don't know what to do with my self

Lisa: why are you telling me this? Don't you have Jin. Or did you kiss someone else, making him leave you?

Namjoon: actually it's the other way around. Jin kissed someone else, which almost made me commit suicide

Namjoon sighed at the fact that he still can't let go of the fact that Jin kissed another man.

Lisa: oh yeah, I heard. It was all over the news. 'Kim Namjoon, better known as RM, jumps off of 12 story  building.'  I remeber reading the article about that.

Lisa gave a light laugh

Namjoon: I can hear you laughing. Can you stop?

Lisa: oh I'm sorry. At least you know how I felt once you kissed Jennie

Namjoon: what are you talking about? You were never depressed or suicidal. And if I remember correctly, you went out clubbing with Jennie.

Lisa: how did you know I went clubbing that night?

Namjoon:  it was all over your Instagram, and Snapchat.

Lisa: whatever. But I was like for real depressed.

Namjoon: you don't know what being depressed is, until you walk off that ledge, or when you tried to take your own life.

Lisa: whatever

Namjoon: I don't even know why I chose to call you.

Lisa: and I don't even know why you chose to stay alive.

Lisa could tell she was making her ex mad. And that's what she wanted.

Namjoon: you know what, I'm done.  sorry for calling. And just go die

Lisa: at least I wasn't the one who actually tried.

Lisa hung up before Namjoon could say anything else. He was obviously mad. But there was nothing he could do about it.