Hotbreaker's Series 6: Right Kind Of Wrong

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"Nanay, we want to go home na po. We don't like here... Hindi naman po kasi home to..." Erion said.

"Kuya ish right nanay... Shan don't like here too." Shan pouted.

"Erion, Shan... Nanay told us last night that this will be our new home..." ani Frin.

Napangiti ako dahil sa sinaad ng panganay ko . She will ne the matured ate ...

"Soldier and angel... This house...is where you are belong... Ito talaga ang home ninyo... Dito kami nakatira noon ng tatay nyo... Before kayo dumating..." kumbinsi ko sa mga ito. "And... Kids... Can you do nanay a favor? "  malambing kong tanong sa kanila. "Can you give your tatay a chance to be close with you?"

Hindi umimik ang triplets. Erion frowned and avoided my eyes... Sa kanilang tatlo siya ang pinakanagtatampo sa ama nila... And it was my fault... If I didn't let him caught me every crying nights of my life... Hindi mangyayari ito.  Ngumiti ako sa kanila... At kinuha ang cellphone ko... I logged in my IG accounts... Well technically it was our joint account... PJ's idea...

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"We should have an IG account... Yung couple IG account... We will uploud our happy moments together on that account... Baby..." puno ng excitement kong sabi nito sa akin habang nakikitingin sa IG account ko... We are currently at my unit...killing our time while lying at my couch cuddling each other... Kakauwi lang namin galing sa kanilang hacienda kahapon... Still we don't make a move to fix everything... Dahil natatakot ako... Hindi pa ako handa...and PJ knows that...

Napatingin ako sa kanya habang sinasabi nya iyon... Alam kong nasasaktan sya habang nakikita ang mga photographs namin ni Toffer... I didn't have plans of deleting any of 'em... Those are part of me... Those will serves as an evidences of that part of my life... Matatabunan din naman iyon...

"But..."

Ngumiti ito ng malungkot sa akin... Ngunit agad pinalitan ng nakkalokong ngisi. "Don't worry... We will set the privacy settings... For the mean time ... Tayong dalawa muna ang makakakita kung ano man ang laman ng account natin ...till the day that we can let the world know about us... " anya sa pilit na masiglang tinig... And it pains me...
Hearing him like this... Stabs my heart... I know... He got me already...pero hindi pa pwede... We have to fix everything first...

"Okay... We will sign up an IG accounts for the both of us... " masaya kong sang-ayon sa kanya na ikinangiti nito ng totoo...

"Thank you...baby... Don't worry... I won't rush you...lalo na at sa akin ka na." he said lovingly.

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"Nanay?" napabalik ako sa kasalukuyan ng marinig si Shan. Nakita ko ng mga nagtatabong nilang mga mata. Nginitian ko ang mga ito at ipinakita ang account...

"Look at here angels... Nanay will show you something... " sabi ko sa kanila sa malambing na tinig. They attentively follow my instruction... Nagpakandon si Shan sa akin while Erion settled at my left side and Frin at my right.

"Woah! That's you po nanay!" ani Shan na tuwang tuwa habang tinuturo ang picture ko na huling inupload doon... Napakunot ang noo ko at pilit inaalala kung kailan yun napunta roon? I was about to click it when Frin spoke

"Nanay... Si tatay po ito no?" aniya sa malambing na tinig at pinindot ang larawang sumunod sa picture ko ...
It was our last picture together... It was our last out of town trip simula ng ikasal kami...we look happy there... Yet PJ's smile lacks of life....because it was the same day... That we bumped with Toffer after decades... I let my kids scroll and look for the photos.

Marming naging tanong sina Frin at Shan...while Erion look at each picture silently... Like he was on his deep thoughts...

"Nanay... Tatay is so sweet po here... Ano po iyong ginagawa niya po sa feet nyo?" ani Frin