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Chapter 26

Song - I Know You

“ Chapter 26 - Fuck ”

*Mingyu's Pov*

The moment I saw the anger burning in her eyes yesterday when I asked her if we should break up was the live example of her messed up emotions.

Sana told me the same thing.

Jungkook told me how off she has been but that's how she has been since almost a year now.

I don't if she already is in depression or is slowly falling in, but she sure is somewhere in between.

Don't joke right no---

Depression is not a joke, Tzu.

She shut her mouth instantly.

Her mind wanders of somewhere as she stares at the ground, her hands trembling, her lower lips starting to quiver and the sight in front of me, punches me in my guts, spreading the pain all over my body.

As if everything finally starts making sense to her, as if her emotions finally make sense, she looks up at me, her eyes shaking but her feets stay glued to their position.

Wrapping my hands around her petite figure, I rest my chin on the top of her head as she breathe in and out slowly.

It's okay. Murmuring, my fingers start stroking her back.

Don't bend your morals for me. Don't forgive me before I seek to. You come first in your life and then it's Daamin and me. Oka--

Kiss me.

Huh?

Take my mind off. Pulling away from our little hug, I see her empty eyes shining with fear as she asks me to do so.

Kiss me.

I stare into her eyes filled with fear before leaning in, our lips melting together as soon as they meet as if this is what they wanted all along.

My feets start walking towards the bed, arms dragging her towards it too as I am holding her, before I break our kiss and push her body gently, making her fall on the soft white mattress behind her, her hand coming out to grab my wrist, pulling me towards her and I end on top of her.

It is then, I notice how she doesn't do anything other than staring at me deeply. As if she can see through me.

She knows when I'm putting up an act. She knows me well. She knows, I can hurt her, I can break her yet she is willing to be with me.

If I fall down which I know, I will, she wants to fall down with me. She doesn't care how much she will get hurt, she cares about me being safe and not hurt.

However, her emotions keep on getting the best of her. It's like she's trying her best to control her body, but over a small thing, her brain gets fuzzy and pushes her to the edge causing the bubble of her emotions to burst.

She doesn't know seeing her like this is what hurts me.

She thinks if we are together, everything is good while when I see her. I see the monster inside of me hurting her, tearing her piece by piece.

And depression is probably the first stage of it.

Interrupting my thoughts, she covers my mouth with hers and waves of current flows down my body.

I don't know why and how I'm still not used to her. I can never get used to this kind of electric feeling that runs down my spine when she touches me, when she smiles, when she stares at me, well, to sum it all, whenever she is around.