"SEND NUDES" | Vkook

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"June 3, 2015
     6 years ago I left this place and went to Seoul in search of my brother, I obviously didn't find him but definitely got enrolled in the BigHit company as a trainee. I had found out about my brother by a couple and they insisted to adopt me and help me find him, i was obviously against it until they told me that they knew appa and eomma. They already had a 2 year old son then but they wanted to adopt me. They know where Junghyun hyung is, but they wouldn't tell me because they know I'll leave them.
    I'm back to busan, after nearly 6 years. I definitely came back just to attend the award show but something happened that made me open this diary again. I lost my virginity..... to a guy. And I don't know how to feel about it..... I just don't like it, I feel disgusted? Maybe I like guys too, but this just seems so wrong.
        I lost my virginity to Baekhyun hyung because he looked like someone I know."

"June 20, 2015
     Baekhyun hyung called today... I don't know how to face him. It's just so difficult, we barely knew eachother... on top of that, IT WAS ILLEGAL. For fucks sake he's 5 years older than me"

"June 26, 2015
     I can't fly back to Seoul because my manager wants me to shoot the new music video in Busan. I hope this ends fast"

"July 4, 2015
     It's been a month since I've come to busan and I haven't seen a certain someone around. I don't even know if he's okay, or hell if he even lives here anymore."

"July 15, 2015
    Me and Baekhyun hyung hangout a lot, we don't fuck though. He told me it was just a one night thing, I obviously agreed. We're friends though"

"July 20, 2015
     I'm going back to Seoul tomorrow and I would like to carry this diary with me, i hope I keep writing."

"September 4, 2015
I just want to write about the guy I met today, I'm sure his boxy smile looked familiar. But maybe he wasn't him, We crossed paths and even made eye contact.... but he acted like a stranger, maybe I'm just over thinking."

"October 18, 2015
I literally want to write everyday but nothing interesting happens, except my fans are increasing"

"April 11, 2017
No I don't like writing on this day in this book.... but something happened today, I don't know why did I go to the CBX concert.... but it definitely changed something. I met the same 'boxy smile' guy I saw 2 years ago, turns out to be he's Baekhyun's cousin. I completely lost it when he introduced himself, he said "Hi I'm kim Taehyung, you can call me V". I met V again.... after nearly 8 years, and he didn't recognise me
.......
even after I told him my name."

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