I was talking to my mom today about my ex. I haven't told anyone other than my mom what happens.
Well I'm going to tell you guys because ever since we talked about it I can't stop thinking about it.
Whenever I tell a new teacher about how we don't get along and to try to keep us out of the same groups or I actually have to talk to him. Well, I shut down. I start shaking really bad. It's hard for me to breath. I feel like I'm about to cry. My heart starts racing. I don't really don't know why either. I can talk about him to you guys and my family easily without feeling like that. But when I talk to a teacher and especially directly to him, my body just shuts down. I'm usually able to fight through it with a teacher but when I do actually have to talk to him(which I avoid at all costs) I literally can't. I have to give myself a pep-talk for like 10 minutes just to ask him for a pencil or sometimes even look at him.
I wish I could stand up to him.
But it wont do anything.
ugh.
frustrating.
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Randomthis is just a place for me to write out my feelings and stuff. I dont expect a lot of people to read this I just think it will be helpful rather than keeping it all bottled up. I got this idea from a few of my friends(you know who you are) and just...
