I have to go to my moms office every weekend. I'm never able to do anything over the weekend anymore. My mom always makes me help her. Now she says she'll get me a summer job there and I'll actually be paid. But that means again I'll probably be able to do nothing over the summer. Now she was talking to her co worker.(my mom is the director of where she works which is pretty much just the head boss) I think/hope they were joking but they were saying once my mom retires I can take over. But I don't want to. That doesn't interest me at all. I want to be an animator I don't even want to live where her office is.
I feel like I'm always expected to be something I dont want to be. My dad really wants me to be a chef just because I used to like watching cooking competitions. I just want to cook as a hobby. Now my mom wants to take over her office. I DONT WANT TO DO EITHER. but they dont care about what I want.
My parents always expect so much from me. They always expect me to get straight A's. And to get a good job. To be the best.
I was always grown up in a Christian home. I was raised to believe in God. I never really had a choice. But as I get older and start to gain my own beliefs. I don't think I believe in that stuff. It doenst seem right to me. I dont know. I feel horrible for saying that but its true. I... I dont know anymore...
This is such a confusing time.
I don't KNOW.
UGH.
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Inside Out Thoughts
Randomthis is just a place for me to write out my feelings and stuff. I dont expect a lot of people to read this I just think it will be helpful rather than keeping it all bottled up. I got this idea from a few of my friends(you know who you are) and just...
