Maybe a month ago when I couldn't sleep I just had this overwhelming thought that I will die young. I don't know why. Now that we're reading the fault in our stars I'm constantly thinking about it. All of my fantasies about growing up and having my own family seems do far fetched now. Like a fairy tale. I'm so paranoid. I don't want to die. Not now. I want tjosr fantasies to happen. But just the thought I'll die young seems to fit so much more. I feel like Hazel Grace. I think about it at such weird times too. I hate it. I just want to have fun while I'm still young. I don't want the thought of death looming me. I'm too young to be worrying about this. Is this normal? Do other kids feel like this too? At some point at least? I don't know. I don't want to be worrying all the time but I am.
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I told my mom about this on the way home and she gave me such a concerned look. She kept trying to reason it away. When I told her I wanted so badly for her to say it was normal but I knew its not. I started crying. I tried not to so much but I couldn't help it. I didnt let her see though. I only answered two questions on my math homework because I don't feel any motivation.
Idk
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Inside Out Thoughts
Randomthis is just a place for me to write out my feelings and stuff. I dont expect a lot of people to read this I just think it will be helpful rather than keeping it all bottled up. I got this idea from a few of my friends(you know who you are) and just...
