Cold

Trust

Tobias explained to us that the next stage of training was mental.A phase as the one we had to go through when we took our apptitude tests.
Which meant our Divergence could easily shown.
Manipulating the program would be difficult especially if Eric was around.

We had two days until the next phase and in the meantime I tried to avoid Eric at all costs.Once in a while people would come and tell me he was looking for me but I kept myself busy with training.
I couldn't face him.I couldn't let myself fall for that man because that would mean my extinction.

I would lie if I said I didn't miss him.But I had to convince myself I didn't.

It was almost midnight and I was in training,trying to keep myself busy and away from Eric.Tomorrow,the next phase of initiation would start and my brother had explained in detail the way we ought to act to pass for true Dauntless.
I wondered what would happen if I couldn't do it.Eric would find out and pass me to Jeanine or he would kill me himself because he would want revenge?
Then what would happen if I did make it.Could I continue my life casually,as nothing happend.
So many questions Tobias didn't want to answer.
He would answer everything about Eric though.He told me how he had killed Tori's brother a few years back and made it look like an accident.It wasn't just her brother.Those four years Eric had killed many people and didn't loose any sleep.

So I chose to keep my distance.Even after initiation..even if I was safe...

It was almost midnight and I was still in the training room,trying to lush out as much stress as I could.It seemed that punching an orange bag was the best way to do that.Today could be the last day i'd get to do that and since I didn't have anyone to hang out with I got caught up with that.
Well that sounded extra sad,combined with the fact I would probably die.

Apparently I was too busy punching to notice Eric walking in.
When I did see him I stopped and looked at him stunned.I had almost forgotten how intimidating this man was.He looked at me through his eyelashes with cold,grey eyes,arms crossed over his chest.
There was a long silence while we stared each other,taking each other in.I wondered if he knew.

"You've been avoiding me."he said at last.

I bit down my lip and looked at my feet.I was indeed..
"I've told you I didn't want that night to be repeated.You had your fun."

Eric frowned and walked closer to me.
He stood right in front of me,towering me.
"I had my fun?You act like I forced you or something.Adelane,what has Four told you?"

His hand grabbed my chin so that I could look at him.
"Tobias has told me that you'll use me to get revenge on him..maybe you have already done it."I whispered.

Eric stepped away from me.He didn't look hurt not socked.
"You think I did what I did because of Tobias?"

I looked back at him.Did I?
I knew I shouldn't trust Eric considering his past but then again he never did something to prove me right.

"I don't know Eric." I felt tears filling my eyes.This was exactly why I didn't want to talk to Eric again.I knew I would break,eventually.
"I just want this to end."

For the first time Eric looked almost sympathetic.
He clenched his jaw and still kept his distance.
"I didn't Adelane.You have to trust me."

Trust.I needed to trust him so much.Would he do the same if he knew?Would he accept me?

"I want to." I whispered.

He finally reached me and hugged me.It felt so good to touch him again.
I took in his scent knowing it could be the last time.
There was no denying anymore that I loved Eric.

I sobbed in his chest and he stroked my hair.
"Shhh.."

I hugged him tightly.

Sorry for the short update!Your girl still can't function after Infinity War