Cold

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~How can Midas put his hands on me again?~

Me,Tobias and Tris spent the night at a cell in Candor and waited for our trial.
The irony of the whole situation was that somehow by escaping we had managed to make things worse and now were even considered criminals.
Criminals
I wonder what word would be the best to describe Eric.
Heartless?Monster?Evil?Vile?
I knew this was all my fault.I knew I was stupid.
So stupid.
That's the only thing i felt.That was what made matters even worse.I couldn't even pretend he had fooled me because deep down i always knew Eric would never change
I ruined not just Tobias's life but Tris and even the whole Amity faction.
They were all considered traitors since they took us in.
Even ather all though my spirit was still not broken.Not quite.
I wanted,no needed revenge.
And I knew what I had to do.

I got up from the ground and went to the window of the cell.

"Guard!" I yelled.

Tobias and Tris stared at me

Tris walked over me.
"What the hell Adelane?"

I ignored her and called again.

The guard walked over lazily.
"What is it?"

"I need you to call me Eric.I need to give him a very important information." I said in a desperate note.

The guard chuckled.
"You'll say everything tomorrow." he turned his back to me but I stopped him

"If you don't call him I'll tell them you kept sensitive information from them and i don't think Jeanine will like that."

The guard stared at me.
"Fucking bitch" he whispered and went to find Eric.

When he left Tobias grabbed my arm and turned me to face him.
"What the hell Adelane?"

"I need to do this Tobias.If there is even once chance for me to change things i will do it...no matter the cost."i whispered.

Not long after Eric came over with the guard behind him.
He looked annoyed that I woke him up.

"What is it now?" he came to stand just in front of me and crossed his arms over his chest.

I grabbed the bars of the cage.
"I want to help you.I don't want to die here with them.I don't deserve it.Please Eric...let me help. I tried to sound as desperate as i could.

He watched me carefully considering it for a moment.
"Let her leave.I'll take care of it." he said without taking his eyes off me.

I smiled a little.

The guard let me out and Eric grabbed the back of my neck and guided me out of the cell room.
We didn't talk until we were inside his room.
He locked the door behind him.

"What is it Adelane?You have something in your mind,don't you?" He watched me very carefully.

I stared back at him.This was the last time i was going to fool him and I had to do it perfectly.
I cleared my throat and took a step closer at him.

"Eric...i haven't forgiven you for what you did." I knew my eyes were filled with tears and these weren't fake.
"But i want to."

He lifted his pierced eyebrow and waited for me to continue.

"That day at the lake was the best day I had in months.I want to be with you.I need it.It's the only thing I know for sure and I am willing to forgive you if you promise me to let me live by your side."

I took a few more careful steps towards him.

He stared at me.Thinking.
I prayed he believed me.

"Fine.But You will have to do everything I say."

I nodded my head enthusiastically.
I placed my hand on the back of his neck and brought my lips on his.
He kissed me back and put his hands on my ass.
He lifted and threw me on the bed.
I knew all too well what to do and to be honest I almost did it mechanically.
He took off his clothes and mine and started kissing me.
I wrapped my leg around his waist and got on top of him.
I continued kissing him,but I knew I had to act fast if I wanted to avoid the sex part.

"Can I go to the bathroom first?" I purred in his ear.

He stared at me,annoyed but still nodded.

I smiled and gave him a small kiss on the lips.

When I got into the bathroom i closed the door behind me and looked around.
I needed something sharp.
I opened the small cab over the sink and bingo,scissors.

I grabbed them and flashed the toilet.

I was still in my underwear so I tugged the scissors behind my panties and I carefully walked out of the bathroom.
Eric was in the same position and gazed,lazily at me as I walked over the bed.
I quickly got on top of him again and I started kissing him again.
He moaned softly and grabbed the back of my head,crashing his mouth on mine,deepening the kiss.

I put my right hand behind my back slowly and drew the scissors out.
Before I could let myself think about it and regret it I brought the knife down on his stomach.
Yes,I didn't want to kill him just wound him really bad.
I still couldn't bare to kill him.

I got on my feet quickly,the knife still in my hand,dripping blood and staining the white carpet.
Some of the blood had splattered on my thighs.The sheer feeling of it made me want to vomit but I kept myself.
Just Then I realized my hands were shaking.

Eric glared at me and growled.He tried to get up but fell back to the bed.
I didn't have much time so I put my clothes.I still wore the white dress from Amity which turned red as well.I also slipped my black boots and walked over the window
I it and looked down,thankfully it was the first floor.I would probably hurt my foot but I had no other choice.
Eric made a second attempt to get up and this time he managed to lift his body but fell the floor.

"You won't get away Adelane." he hissed.
"You are still weak,couldn't bare to kill me,even though I hurt you so many times."
His voice held a tone of amusement that made me want to crawl into a hole.
Because he was true and i was so ashamed.

I turned my head to look at him.
"I am not like you." I whispered.

That was the last thing i said.
And then jumped.