Cold

Safe

3 months past and I tried for the sake of my baby to keep myself calm so I would have a normal pregnancy.
Every day I felt like I loved this baby even more and it hurt even more to think I had to leave it and probably never see it again.
I knew my life would be over once I gave birth and I felt Jeanine growing inpatient.
I never saw Eric again those past months.

Now I was in front of the mirror on my doctor's office and I stared at my swelling belly.
"You are going to have a better life than me."I whispered.

I heard the door close and I turned to greet the doctor but instead i saw the blonde girl that was with Eric the day they brought us here.
I stared at her ready to fight back.
"Josephine."I said.

She snarled "my name is Jose."

I smirked at her.
"What do you want i've left Eric alone he will have nothing to do with the baby."I paused for a moment
"He's all yours."

She gave me a small laugh and started to slowly walk towards me.
"Eric's mind has been somewhere else.He says he doesn't feel anything but I know it's not true and it's all your fault.He's having second thoughts." each word she spoke was filled with hatred.

I frowned.
"Eric is not having second thoughts he was just used to controlling me and now he doesn't have a weak person to torture that is all."

"I am not talking just about you.He is having second thoughts about our mission with Divergents.He's going...soft." she spoke the word soft with so much hatred and disgust.

I was confused but I did not bite.I could never believe Eric would be having second thoughts on this.

"The baby." she whispered.

Until then I hadn't realized that Josephine sound like a mad woman.
My hand instantly covered my stomach.

"It needs to die." she smiled.

I shook my head.

Josephine wasted no time and pulled a knife out of her back,launching at me.
I instantly screamed and back away,not because i was afraid of her but because I couldn't risk my baby.

She was a good fighter.
He hand grabbed my hair and pulled me to the ground.I groaned when my back hit the floor.
I heard noise from outside the door and I knew someone was there ans I was safe.
I sighed in relief.

Unfortunately,Josephine heard it too.
She wasted no time and brought the knife down my belly.
Just then the door opened and a wide eyed Eric jumped in,he threw Josephine away and took me in his hands.
After that I don't remember much.I had already lost too much blood and I was losing my sense slowly.
I still had one thing In my mind.
My son.

The next thing I remember was a blinding white light and then the doctor saying he was sorry.
Then darkness again.

When I finally opened my eyes a few days later I found Eric sitting on a chair beside me.He looked exhausted but still held his posture.
I tried to sit up and he immediately turned to me.

"What happened."my voice was extremely sore.
Eric closed his eyes for a brief moment.
When he opened it again he looked almost sad.
"I heard your scream and when I opened the door Jose had a knife in your stomach.I don't know if she was trying to kill you or the baby or both."

My eyes widened.
"The baby..."I whispered.

"I am sorry Adelane...i really am." Eric's voice sounded cold but sincere.

I felt so numb.I couldn't cry,I couldn't feel anger towards Jose,I just couldn't bring myself to feel anything.I just stared at the room.
Realization that this baby was the only thing keeping me alive hit me.My link with Eric even though I knew he did not love me I had something from him.
I had hope.

Eric put his hand on my shoulder and I looked up to his face.
"What will happen to me now?"

"Since the baby is no longer involved I suppose we will continue with the experiments."Eric said.

So that was it.That was my fate.

When I did not respond Eric took his hand away and went to leave.

"Could you stay with me?" I said.

Without a word Eric sat on the bed beside me,hugged me and we stayed like that.
And after a long time I felt safe.