Begin Again

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FINAL CHAPTER

Eva's POV

The rest of the school year went by in a drag. Harry didn't talk to me, and I didn't talk to him but him and Evan still remained friends, which I was thankful for. But as time went on, Harry must have thought that not talking to me was worse than being friends and not being able to kiss each other whenever ((which is what I also thought)) because he came up to me and suggested we continue being best friends.

I obviously agreed and it made it easier for Evan and us to hang out too.  

I didn't want their friendship to be ruined because our relationship didn't work out. 

But the past few weeks, being single had really gotten me thinking about myself in general. Maybe it was for the best that I had broken up with Harry. I needed to learn to become more dependent on myself instead of other people and when I was with Harry, and even through my friendship with Evan, I was depending on both of them.

That's not who I wanted to be.

So I told them both that I wanted my space sometimes, but I also wanted to have that reassurance that I wouldn't completely lose either of them. Harry agreed instantly and reassured me that we'd possibly get back together in the future and Evan was quick to tell me he wasn't going anywhere so that was nice of them. 

But now, as I sat in my graduation garments, amongst the many other kids that I would be graduating with, I could only think of me leaving this life behind and completely starting fresh. Completely abandoning everything and everyone that I had ever known and venture into a complete unknown to rediscover who I am and who I want to become. 

It's what I thought of when I walked across that stage and accepted my high school diploma. It's what I thought of when I flashed the fakest smile I could at the teachers and the photographer taking my picture of me awkwardly holding the principal's hand, mid-shake. It's what I thought of as I stepped off of the stage, and it was what I thought of when I walked past Harry and caught his gaze. It was what I thought when my parents hugged me and told me how proud they were.

The only thought on my mind, was that I wanted to be strong and independent. 

I was going to be going to a different city, and hopefully then, another city. I wanted to travel. I didn't want to depend on other people to get my bucket list done. 

So as I stood in front of Harry, our parents behind us chatting, him holding his diploma and me holding mine, and both of us in our grad gowns, I smiled.

"This is it," I smiled. He smirked. 

"Yeah," he nodded.

Over the past few weeks, we had somehow managed to our break up behind us. We'd become friends again and it made me really happy to know that I wasn't going to be losing him anytime soon.

"Will I see you again?" he asked, "in the future? Will we make it happen?"

I looked at him, biting my lip as Evan came to join us. I looked at them both and smiled.

"You're my best friends," I began, "and I love you both. Evan, you're like my brother and I will never forget the wonderful times we had and-"

"Wait, what the fuck?" Evan said, "this bitch is talking like she's about to jump off of the face of the earth, girl the fuck is wrong with you?"

I laughed as did Harry, who looked at me quite unsure.

"I want to break free," I said, "from everything. Everyone. All of the things that keep me tied to this place. I want to be able to explore the world on my own and become my own independent person. Throughout the years in school, I had gone from having Harry as my rock to having you, Evan, and I think it's time I found out how to be my own rock."

Evan smiled and shook his head before he patted my shoulder, "that's my girl. You're all grown up. For real."

We laughed and I stepped forward, pulling him into a tight hug before he kissed my head and pulled away, "you better fucking keep in touch."

I nodded, "of course."

He nodded and looked behind him, "I gotta go. Sophia is waiting."

He gave Harry a tight hug and a pat on the back and smiled at me again before he ran off to go hang out with his girlfriend, which left Harry and I alone.

"You're not upset are you," I asked timidly. He looked at me, eyes glistening before he offered a small smile.

"Of course not," he sighed, "I guess this means we might not happen again."

I pursed my lips, "don't be too sure."

He looked at me for a second and I looked at him before he stepped forward and cupped my face. His lips pressed against mine as he wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted me up off of the ground. Our arms were wound tightly around each other and we poured every emotion we had been feeling and repressing into this kiss, our lips moving in sync. 

I missed the feeling. 

We pulled away breathless.

"I love you," he breathed, "I always will. It'll always be you. I promise."

I smiled, kissing him again, "I'll never want anyone else."

He smiled, tears glistening in his eyes.

"One day?"

I nodded.

"One day."

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Next chapter will be the epilogue. 

Yes, this is the final chapter. I had just wanted to finish this book up and get it done so I could move on and work on these new books I have coming. 

Thank you again for reading this book, it's been a pleasure. 

Love,

S.