I am NOT your fan | EXO CHEN

17. Say my name

Song: Be Calm - Hwasa (MAMAMOO)

'I can't turn back time, so it's ticking silently. Even when I let go of people I love... longing, emptiness, and loneliness are growing. I don't know why I feel sorrow, help me to find my way.'

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*Snap*

A lot of things flooded my mind within a few seconds of time. When Jongdae pulled me in, his scent gushed through my nostrils and made my legs go weak for a second. I think it was the smell of his cologne that gave off a mix of ocean and honeydew scent, and I loved it.

I held my own breath as he breathed close to me, getting nervous by the fact that we were, again, standing so close to each other. My heart was drumming erratically fast underneath my skin.

What's this? What's this feeling?

I thought my heart was going to fall out and I didn't know how to control it. I wished I could just shut it down and spring away from him, but I didn't really want to move either. It's ridiculous to admit but I like staying with him this way.

But why? How could I like it? Why should I like it?

I pushed him back using my arms as a barrier to his chest. I needed a distance from him before it caused danger to my heart. I inhaled and exhaled slowly as a way to calm my frantic heart, knowing that I need to get myself back together if I wanted to escape from him alive. "So... erm, the pictures. Wow," I started slowly.

"It's a gift to you," he handed my phone back to me as he said. I eyed my phone for a while before speaking, leaving an awkward silence to fill the lobby. It only contained us two and I almost forgot how to breathe again.

"Thank you! Bye!"

I exhaled the last breath in me before turning my heels towards the elevator. Slamming the elevator button continuously as I stood in front of it, I prayed hard to myself for the door to hurry up and open. It wasn't coming yet. I kept my ears open and easily heard his footsteps draw near.

He's coming...

Please don't tell me he's planning to ride it with me. Maybe it's a bad choice taking the elevator for an escape. They should try changing the emergency sign to 'when there's Jongdae, do not use the lift' for me to learn my lesson.

"Pressing it that many times isn't going to make the lift come faster," he informed beside me, but I wasn't going to give him a look.

I know that, you idiot. But I can't help myself.

"Erm, yeah," I replied but my finger was still digging into the button.

"Hey," Jongdae took one step closer beside me. 

"Rosie." He called my name.

Oh my god, did he just say my name?

"Rosie?" He called my name again. We talked to each other a few times before but this was the first time he actually called me by my name. It sounded lovely coming from his lips.

"Hey," he said again. This time, he held onto my arm and turned me towards him. "I said the lift won't-"

He wanted to say something again but he stopped when his eyes landed on my face. Why did he stop? "What? What's wrong?" I asked immediately when I couldn't interpret his expression.

"You're...blushing again. Are you getting shy on me?"

He broke into a chuckle. 

WHAT THE HECK!