I am NOT your fan | EXO CHEN

42. In your eyes

Song: Forgetting You - DAVICHI✨

'It's okay even if you're a little late. If it's destiny, we will meet again. Someday, I hope I can love you as much as I want.'

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Since the day I broke my relationship with Jongdae, I wondered how long it would take for us to walk our separate ways. Every day, I still secretly wished that I would bump into him by chance. For some time, I conflicted this with myself - for wanting him back so badly and for the need to cast him out of my life.

These days, I was able to manage better. Even though we weren't together, I started to convince myself that I didn't need him in my life.

It was supposed to be that way, but then his occasional appearance and unbudging presence became something I would look forward to. I had to admit that seeing him, even if it's just for a second, could brighten up my day. No matter how much I denied our relationship, he always tried twice as hard to get my attention and my acceptance. And because he did that, it comforted me. I never realized how much I liked that part until today. Because today, everything stopped.

Jongdae stopped trying.

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It was Monday again - another fresh start to the week, and I was in a better mood compared to the past few weeks, knowing that my parents were back. Mom told me to come home early tonight because we would be having dinner together again (finally!) and she was going to cook my favorite dish.

I walked down the hallway that led to my office, skipping in light steps and humming my favorite song. And then I saw him, my favorite man, coming from the other side of the hallway. Coincidental or not - I don't know. I just knew that I was suddenly filled with courage to say hi, instead of having him to approach me like the past few times.

This time, I would initiate a conversation. I guess I could talk to him as a friend.

He walked towards me making eye contact, and a smile crept up my face the nearer we approached one another. I was ready to wave at him and my friendliness was waiting to show. But before I said anything, he broke off our eye contact and shunt away from my acknowledgment. Oddly, I caught on the vibe of a stranger.

The pleasantness on my face vanished when he didn't stop for me. I thought he would have. One step after another, I watched as Jongdae continued to walk past and away from me. Why wouldn't he acknowledge me?

"J-Jongdae ah!" I cried his name. He left me half stunned, half confused, and completely desolated.

My eyes followed his back as he took a few more steps before slowing down to a stop. It was almost like he didn't want to respond to me.

But he still stopped because I called him, right?

"Jongdae ah," I said his name again, wanting him to turn back and talk to me properly. Every second I waited pricked my nerves, making me anxious by the moment.

Turn around, please. I started praying to myself.

It took him a few seconds before he finally did. "What?"

"I...erm..." I stuttered, taken aback by his sudden coldness.

"What do you want?" He questioned again.

My breath hitched at my throat. I least expected him to talk to me like that and when he did, it caused me astray from my thoughts. "Well..."

"What is it, Rosie?"