March 10th,
I haven't told anyone what happened to me that day mamma, and it's been a month. Am I being stupid for keeping quiet? If I had told father earlier, he would have taken me straight back to the institution. No hesitation. But then again...maybe I need to go back.
Jema is becoming more depressed, I fear she will become like father. Pining her heart away. It breaks me to think that such a young girl can be so depressed.
You still speak to me mamma, and I still block you out, in attempts to stay sane. It's as if even your ghost wants me in the hospital. Sometimes I think I can see you. But maybe these things are just symptoms? Yes of course, Symptoms. It is normal for me to be like this.
I am not insane.
Not again.
-Lucy x
