March 20th,
She said it mamma...she said she could hear you. That's insane.
But then again...I can hear you too. Oh mamma you're scaring me. Does your ghost roam around the house at night? Do you hover over my bed and watch me sleep? Have you seen my diary? The pages I continue to write in to you?
I'm scared. For the first time I'm scared and insane at the same time. I don't want to be a troubled soul mother. Oh please leave us be. I can't bear it.
But, just because Jema can hear you does not mean that it's true. Right? She is only young.
I wish my own words could comfort me, but they work no magic.
Jema is more alive than before. She tells me all about how you speak to her in quiet hushed tones at night. It is a wonder how she is not afraid of the dark. Is she too young to understand? Oh how she must miss you.
-Lucy x
