Never Give Up (Connor Franta Fan Fiction)

Chapter 32

** Avery POV **

Keep on movin'

Keep climbin'

Keep the faith baby

It's all about, it's all about the climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa, whoa, oh.

Dear Avery,

There is so much I want to say about you, but I don't want to make this like 20 pages so I shorten it. Life isn't perfect for you. You have your ups and downs, but your not alone I am here. You have told me that I am the constant in your life, your rock. But Avery you are my constant, my rock. After we broke up part of me died and stayed dead till I saw you. At first I didn't believe it was you, but it was and I swore to myself that I would get you back. That's Joe butted in and that part died again. But its well alive now and there's no killing it. How about we go back to where it all started.... in parking spot 27, also referred to as 'Britt's parking spot'.

I couldn't control myself and right off the bat called you gorgeous. You immediately denied it. (Sometimes you can be really stubborn.) I helped you carry all your stuff to your room. After we were done we exchanged numbers. Later that day Ray texted me, Zack and Nicole while we were hanging out. We all got the text and agreed on going. We hopped in the car and when we got there I didn't just see Raynah get out but you did too. Then Ray told me what you told her and I was completely embarrassed. While we were eating Britt had to come over and ruin the night. She has always been like that when I with like Raynah and Nicole. But the differences were that she was telling us about you to get away from you. Honestly, I believe it made us closer. You want to leave and I was going to leave with you. But being stubborn you, you yelled at me to stay. So I just walked you to the car. When we got there I fought with you for the keys. And that's the first time I kissed you and I knew it was the start of something great.

When I got to your dorm you scared the shit out of me. I couldn't lose you right after I met you. I waited with you holding your hand in the hospital. Then everything changed it wasn't gonna be the same I felt it. We went to AppleBees when the guys came here. Yet another scare with you. That as the first time I saw your mom. How could someone do that to their child? The point is that it is my job to keep you safe. So much more has happened. When we had another encounter with your mother, we were leaving for Cali. You forgave her and I got pissed. I admit I may have gone to far, you started to leave and my heart started to shatter. I had Raynah and Jc yelling at me to go after you. I couldn't take it any longer and ran after you.

While in Cali you were outside tanning and we were talking inside. If you wanted to know we were talking about you. I did tell the guys the whole situation with your mom and family. Im sorry if you didn't want to but I needed to tell. I told them about the attempts you had made to cease your life. I needed to tell them if I didn't how could I protect you? That is my job, keep you safe. When you meet my parents I really thought we hit it off. Then my father took me outside and told me I had to break up with you.

Av I never mean't to hurt you thats the last thing I would ever want to do. I want you to be the person I grow old with and have kids with and get in arguments with over the color of the wallpaper. The look in your eyes when I broke up with you that night in the car will never leave my mind. That look of lost, confusion, pain. The look of a child that lost their favorite toy or their balloon flew away. I left for California again about a week later. I couldn't take the pain of seeing you everyday.

I ran away in fear I guess you could say. But I am tired of running. I honestly don't know why I am running away from you. I guess its just that I don't want to hurt you. But I already hurt you so there's no way I can hurt you. Avery I love you and nothing can change that, no matter what. Avery there is one thing that was mean't when I was writing this.