Never Give Up (Connor Franta Fan Fiction)

Chapter 41

**Avery POV**

It's been a long day without you my friend

And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

We've come a long way from where we began

Oh I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

When I see you again

"Why did i live?" Was all I heard before I broke down.

"Connor what are you talking about?" I said trying to talk while makeup ran down my face and burned my eyes.

"I should have died. I was supposed to die. Why did I live? It was a head on collision, it was meant to put me six feet under. But why am I here? Why did I get to live? I don't get it. Things like that happen ever day and people die, they don't get to live they die. Why am I an exception?"

"Connor you lived because you wanted to. You fought for your life. And yes people who are in the same situation as you were do fight but for some people their to weak and just give up. Connor you knew you needed to live, and thats why you did."

"Avery I just don't get it though. What-what gave me the strength because I know I didn't have the power in me to do it. Please just give me something that gave me strength." He pulled over to the side of the road and rotated in his seat so he was facing me. I kept my eyes in front of me staring at the road thinking of an answer. "Av please just give me an answer that's all I'm asking for." I moved my head so I was looking out the window into the woods that were next to the car. "I just need an answer. Can't you just give me an answer?"

"Connor I don't know."

"That because there is no reason Avery." He said slamming his fist onto the middle console, his action received a jumped from me in response to it.

"Connor you lived because you knew what you wanted and you knew how close you were to getting it. You-"

"I think we should take a break from-" I finally turned my head to face Connor. Looking at him with swollen red eyes, tears streaming down my face I looked down at my hand pulling the promise ring off my hand and throwing it at him. His face remained a blank stare on me. I unbuckled my seatbelt, gabbing my bag I gripped the door handle. With one move I was outside the car.

"Avery get back in the car." He said before I slammed the door shut. He rolled down the window, "Avery come on get back in." He insisted again.

"Connor just go eat. I'll be ready to leave when you get back." I said pulling my purse onto my shoulder.

"Avery I'm not leaving you on the side of the road."

"Well thats your plan so its working. We've been through so much, the first time we broke up it was all your parents. They didn't want their 'perfect' son to be with a slut that can't support him. Well I guess they were right. Just go eat and tell them I got sick or something so you drove me back home. I don't want to be the person to make you change. Connor when was the last time you record a video or even went on youtube or hung out with your friends?" I was staring at the ground and then my eyes moved to his eyes. "That's my fault. If you subtract me from the equation you would be living with them making videos every week. You wouldn't be tied down. You would have never gotten into that accident. You wouldn't have two daughters. You would be you, only have to support yourself not three other people. You wouldn't have to worry if three other people were happy and safe. You would just have to worry about yourself. I'm sorry I ruined that for you and I understand that you don't want to be with me."

"Avery please we can talk about this later."

"NO I DON'T WANT TO HEAR THAT. EVERYONE SAYS THAT TO ME AND THEN THEY FORGET ABOUT ME." I began screaming. A car begins to pull up behind Connor. "I texted Joe." I said as Connor's eyes flashed with anger. "He's going to drive me home and help me pack."