Never Give Up (Connor Franta Fan Fiction)

Chapter 40

*Avery POV*

Put me on the shelf; discipline myself

To let the sparks die out

Shattering anything

That has reflections of you

You

"Over about two inches to the right." I said as Connor and Ray's dad hung up our family portrait. It was one of those professional matching outfit perfect ideal family picture. In the moment the picture was taken we looked exactly like the ideal family, once the camera went click the meltdowns began. Slowly breaking down. "Well we have to get ready otherwise we will miss our reservations." I said grabbing the girls clothes off the ironing board. My plan being get them dressed after I am ready so they can get their full nap in, hopefully.

I walk in my room and hang their freshly ironed clothes on the closet door (http://www.polyvore.com/sienna_madison/set?id=163626037). I hear a cry, great their up so their going to get cranky at the restaurant, i groaned to myself. "I got it." Connor said running past the door like a super hero. I smirked as he made it look like he had a cape flying behind him. Walking into the bathroom I take a deep breathe and look at myself in the mirror. As I stared at myself the past years events ran through my head.

Going to college-

Meeting Connor-

Facing death #1-

Me and Connor getting together-

Struggling through college (like any normal college student)-

Fighting with Connor-

Making up with Connor-

Facing death a few more times-

Seeing my mother-

Cali with Connor-

Breakup with Connor-

Back with Connor-

Facing death again-

Almost losing Connor-

The promise ring-

Sienna and Madison-

It kept flashing between my life as a kid and Sienna and Madison. I feel Connor rub his hands up and down my shoulders. "What's wrong." He asked towards my contorted facial expression. "I was just thinking of everything that has happened in the past year. And then when I think about it, and when I think of Sienna and Madison it always leads me back to my childhood. Connor I don't want what happened to me to happen to them." I took a gulp trying to prevent myself from crying.

"Avery-Avery look at me," He replied hooking my chin with his hand and turning me so I look straight into his eyes. "Nothing like that is going to happen. It almost did but a miracle happened and look at us. Look at us, we're here now. Right here standing in the bathroom of OUR house, TOGETHER. Exactly how its supposed to be. No other way." He smiled causing me to smile, his smile is just so contagious its like a laugh especially his, his is pretty contagious also. "Well I believe we have a lovely dinner booked by my lovely girlfriend and mother to my daughters to get to so we should probably stop talking, especially in a bathroom where we have this lovely throne," he motioned towards the toilet, "and we should probably get dressed and go eat." He smiled picking me up bridal style and carrying me into our room. With one swift move he threw me on the bed grabbing his clothes and going back into the bathroom to get ready.

I climbed off the bed grabbing my clothes and following him into the bathroom. "Are you stalking me?" He smirked.

"Maybe! I think your really hot!" We laughed. "Do you know what time it is?" I asked him.

"Um it 3:27." He said reading off his watch. I sighed going back into the room and grabbing the girls clothes. "No I'm ready you go get ready and I'll get the girls ready.(http://www.polyvore.com/connor/set?id=163626342)" Connor said taking the girls clothes from my hands and giving me a kiss before embarking on mission get the girls dressed with out having to call in reinforcements.

I slid on my shoes, tying the laces. And last but not least accessories. Of course my promise ring goes on first, and the only reason it was of was because Madison thought it would be funny to get play dough all over their room and had mommy have to scrap it off everything, not easy to do with a ring on worrying it would break. One last look in the mirror to make sure theres nothing on this shirt (http://www.polyvore.com/avery_20/set?id=163625982). Finally were ready to leave. Two rhinos are heard running down the hall. "Their so tiny yet so loud." I said walking into the hall where Connor was waiting for me. "Their getting so big already. Can't they stay small so their not able to do anything?" He asked getting a laugh out of Raynah's parents.

"Sorry it doesn't work like that Connor. And no matter how mad you get as they get older and cause more trouble, hospitals have a no return policy so once you have them theres no going back and there's no selling them either. You'll get arrested trust me." Raynah's mom laughed. "HEY!" Ray said walking into the room. "I wanted to return you after you decided that the bathroom was a shower and you told me that 'mommy needed a shower'. I don't think I ever yelled that loud or ever got that mad."

"Wait you dumbed your potty on your mom?" Connor and me laughed.

"Wait till it happens to you.." Her mom said pointing her finger at me and Connor as she moved it between us. "Well I think we have to go otherwise we will lose our reservation." She said looking at her watch then walking up and grabbing a beast. Sienna waddled over to me crying already. Connor went in for the save but was shot down when she screamed for me. I gave him a look saying I'm sorry when a look of sorrow covered his face.

I pick her up carrying her out to the car and buckling her into her car seat. I watch as Connor gets in the drivers seat and see him through the rearview mirror suck his lips in watery eyed. That moment I realized it was more to Sienna saying no to him. It was way more.

It was something he was hiding. Something that needed to break free. Raynah's parents saw me looking at him and came walking over to me. "You and Connor take our car we will drive the girls. You need to be alone just the two of you." I nodded mouthing thank you to them as they handed me the keys. I went over to our car and told Connor what we were doing. At first he resisted but caved when I started walking back into the house. We got in their car. He started the car as we buckled our seat belts. Following Raynah's parents we pulled out of the driveway. He had the same look as before. He grabbed my hand. Moments passed before he talked. Once he started I knew it was beyond what I could handle all I heard was, "Why did I live."

( ∞ AUTHORS NOTE: So cliffhanger there...I have an idea and i need feedback, should i write this till a certain chapter then a sequel? If you want me to, how much longer do you want me to make this? Honestly though like I don't want this book to end because when i get into writing it, its like I am somewhere else and it just is one of the best thing. Well i am going to try and update more so here is the second update in this week! If you wanna see what im doing more often you can follow my instagram and twitter @katbreines. Hope you like this chapter! KK LOVE YASS BYEEEE ∞ )