Love Again

Chapter 6

 He knows? Why would he lie to me? He knows things that asshole did to me? He still thinks I'm asleep, so here goes nothing.

"You know?" I asked.

He looks shocked to see I know. "Look...I didn't want you to know  because...because you would've shut me out like you are going to right now!"

I started tearing up cause he's right but I need to let him in because he wants to help me.

He saw me starting to cry so he crawled in the hospital bed and held me while I cried into his chest and whispered sweet nothings to me to try and calm me down and he kept telling me he loved me and that made me cry even harder cause I don't love him the way he loves me and I don't know if I ever will.

"I'm not going to let him hurt you like this anymore okay?" I nodded my head and he kissed the top of my head and all around my face making me giggle.

"You know I love you right?" I nodded my head slowly "It's okay that you don't love me back okay? I just needed you to know how I felt. I overreacted but I just needed you to know." I nodded and kissed his cheek, his stubble tickling my lips.

"I love you." he said and put his nose up to mine and gave me Eskimo kisses.

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I got released from the hospital that day and Ed took me home and right now he's in a studio in the city, I don't actually live in the city I live in Brooklyn, it's about 10 minutes away from the city but I'm scared he's going to come back and Ed won't be there to save me.

 Me: when are you coming back?

Ginger: I don't know why? are you okay baby?

Did he just call me baby?

Ginger: sorry I didn't mean to call you that but are you okay?

Me: I don't know....Please come back.

Ginger: on my way.

I don't mean to sound clingy towards him at all but in all honesty I need him right now to help me and I'm afraid to be here alone and for him to come in and taunt me and ridicule me on my life and how I should be more of a Christian girl and not be a 'potty mouth' and not be who I was and telling me my Mom was a bitch.

Telling me not to hang out with Nick anymore cause hanging out with another boy was probably a sin to him especially one that's gay. There's so many times I can remember him being a major asshole where I could've ended it right then and there myself but I didn't. I was in too deep.

In some fights we had I swear he was going to hit me but he never did. But there was this one time I was supposed to hang out with him at his house and I remember this so vividly but he decided to ditch me for doing something really stupid at the library instead of being with me. Hours and hours passed by and he finally came back.

I had been sitting with his Mom for hours and she yelled and yelled and yelled at him and then I heard a smack. I kinda tried not to see what was going on but I felt as if I had to and she was pulling on his hair hard enough to pull it out and I felt so bad he cried in his room in the basement for a while. He finally came upstairs and just hugged me and all I could do was say I was sorry and hug him.

I heard my door creak but it wasn't Ed. It was him.

"What are you doing here?" He laughs darkly.

 "Why do you think babe?"

Saying I was scared was beyond words I was more than scared.

Ed. God I hope he gets here soon, I've gotta distract him and try to call Ed at the same time. "Miss me baby?" I had to lie so I didn't get hurt Ed wouldn't want me to risk it.

"Oh yeah. So much." I breathed Ed was on my speed dial so I just pressed one.

"You're going to do as I say and tell you to understand?" I nodded my head and he pulls out a gun.

He walks out of the room and I make sure Ed is on the other line "Ed Please hurry he's here hurry please please I need you, please." He sounded like he was on the verge of tears but I knew he was holding them in for me.

"I will, I will I fucking promise you. I told you I was going to protect you and I'm keeping that promise. but you gotta promise me something.."

"Anything..." He was breathing harder than normal.

"You have to fight him. No matter what fight him as long as you can okay baby? I love you alright? So fucking much don't forget that-" And the line went dead. I looked up and Ethan threw my phone across the room.

"What did I tell you?!"

sorry this was so short I promise to make the next chapter longer. but ohhhh what do you think will happen?