Love Again

Chapter 21

Recap:

"We...we're not pregnant." He looked at me confused.

"That's it?" He asked.

"No...I'm...I can't have a baby Ed..."

And he stares at me for the longest time, I know this is crushing him I wouldn't blame him if he left me for someone else so he can have a baby.

.........

He just kept staring at me for the longest time.

"Uhm.." I'm finally going to say it, how I feel. I'm going to flat out tell him to leave me and go have a baby with someone else. He knows I wouldn't want to adopt anyways.

"There's a chance I could get pregnant but it'd be like a 5% chance so guessing from the look on your face you want to leave me, go ahead I give you full permission. Go find someone who can give you a baby cause I fucking can't." And I walked out of the aquarium without him following me out, he's still standing there in shock.

Ed's POV

I wanted to run after her, I did but it felt like my legs were physically stuck to the ground, but she wanted me to leave her. I couldn't do that, how could she think I could do that? My legs started to carry me towards Harry's, Shawna wasn't there as far as I'm aware and I'm glad she's not cause seeing as she's pregnant she'd probably hit me harder against my head than normal for not running after her upset best friend because we can't get pregnant.

I knocked on his door and he opened. "Oh. Hey mate...wait. You're supposed to be on your date. What the fuck. What happened? Oh my god you're crying."

"Mate you ask too many questions." 

I ended up getting hysterical so he sat me on the couch and sat in front of me.

"Mate...what happened?"

"She can't get pregnant...she- she-" I croaked. He just got up and hugged me, he knew something had happened but he probably knew cause him and Shawna have that kind of relationship where they don't lie to each other about anything and tell each other literally fucking everything like fucking girly best friends.

"Mate why don't you just go lie down in our guest room alright? I'll get a hold of Courtnie to make sure she's okay alright. Do you know where she is?" He asked and I thought of an idea. Probably her most favorite place in London. 

"Try...Try the ice cream parlor next to the park and the London eye. That's where I took her one time and...she told me it's her favorite place now."

Courtnie's POV

I was sitting in the park with a small bowl of ice cream from the ice cream parlor that Ed took me to. He also took me on the London eye which took him some convincing because I'm deathly afraid of heights so I don't like ferris wheels or going on planes or big roller coasters.

I heard someone coming so I turned around from the tree I was sitting against and looked and I saw a frazzled Harry he had a green bandana or maybe even a shirt knowing him and a blue button down shirt, black skinny jeans and his brown scruffy boots. I looked at him confused.

"Ed's at my flat, what happened between the both of you? He's in hysterics." Oh god. I don't want to see him crying I literally hate it.

"Please don't make me go back with you I can't handle him crying I literally fucking hate it."

"Tell me what happened first." 

"Okay so I don't know if Shawna told you but we kinda got jealous of you and Shawna having a baby so...we wanted our own from everything we went through and I know what you're going to say we're not married yet, I know that. We wanted this to start over and I know that's not a reason to have a baby but we tried to get pregnant Harry and I went to the doctor after he left again and..."

I think at this point he knew what was wrong, he knew I couldn't have a baby. He just closed his eyes and slid down to the ground next to me and put an arm around me. "I'm sorry, love. I know how much he wanted this with you especially but...now I know why he was crying so hard."

Jesus. I knew he'd take the new badly but he needed to know so we didn't keep trying without success. "I also heard him talking to himself while he was crying. Something about you being in love with Luke?"

"Oh my god no! I only think of him as a friend and Luke knows that, I kind of knew he was in love with me, the way he makes romantic gestures just shows it."

He nodded his head. "How about I walk you to his flat and I'll send him back in the morning so you guys can talk it out alright?" And I nodded my head yes.

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Nick's POV

So me and Liam have been hanging out lately and since Courtnie has told me he's gay I've been flirting with him constantly. But he doesn't really flirt back which kinda makes me sad but of course I'm not his type...I never will be.

I heard the door open and saw Liam walk out of my bedroom. My Bedroom. As in he slept in my bedroom on my bed, in my blankets, my pillows....

"Hey Nick." He greeted me but honestly I couldn't say anything because she was shirtless and in his boxers and a pair of sweatpants.

But out of nowhere he just hugged me. Like really tight, so I hugged him back even tighter. "I need to tell you something." He whispered in my ear. I nodded my head and sat back down at the island in the kitchen and he sat across from me.

"I'm gay." He didn't even give me time to respond cause he grabbed me and kissed me on the lips, and of course I responded to it. 

"So you do like me..." I whispered to him and he nodded and hugged me again.

"You're like a teddy bear Li. Like my bear. Yeah. My bear."

"Then you'll be my perfecter cause you have to make sure everything's perfect. Fect for short. My fect. My love."

"No that's fucking stupid Li. Pick something else." And he shook his head no. fucking great.

A/N: wey heyyyy.  NOW HAS ANYONE WATCHED EDS NEW MUSIC VIDEO? WELL HE HAS ONE DON'T FREAK OUT OR ANYTHING. HE DIDN'T EVEN GIVE A WARNING THE DAY BEFORE WHAT THE HELL EDWARD CHRISTOPHER SHEERAN? anyways it's weird as fuck. in the beginging i thought the guy was being possesed. anyways his new video is on the side along with ed and harry's pic. i've gotta make dinner here so sorry for mistakes i'll come fix them later.