Love Again

chapter 10

Songs for the chapter:

Even my dad does sometimes- Ed Sheeran

Fix you- Coldplay  

Amnesia- 5 Seconds Of Summer

  Ed took a bullet for me. He got shot for me. I finally had the nerve to look down and he was shot right into his chest. I bent down to him.

"Ed...no." He just lifted his hand onto my cheek and rubbed his thumb back and fourth. I heard sirens in the distance. "I love you....always....remember....."

And that's when he shut his eyes.

"Ed no! no no no no no!" I screamed and hugged him and the paramedics dragged me off of him kicking and screaming.

I rode in the ambulance with him and held his hand.

"Is...is he going...to be okay?" The paramedic shrugged.

"Depends on how he does when they operate on him to get the bullet out and if he doesn't go in a coma." A coma!? That always ends nicely. It always ends terrible, losing their memory and not remembering the important people meaning me.

 I've been pacing around the waiting room for hours just waiting for answers on if he's okay but no one will say anything they all just give me sad looks. Luke and Ashton came to see me to make sure I was okay they both hugged me when I was crying really hard I swear I saw Luke crying but I ignored it. Harry is kind of emotionless right now he just won't talk and he sits there just staring at the wall.

Shawna came and saw me along with Nick and they have been here probably since before Ed even got admitted into the hospital. I explained everything to her, running into him, him seeing I was upset and then our fight and then him getting shot.

 "Courtnie?" One of the surgeons asked. I got up along with Louis who got here a while ago making sure Harry was alright the surgeon just gave me a sad smile. No. No. He's not dead. He can't be, he can't leave me it's not his time, not yet.

"Is he alright?" Louis spoke for me.

"Well there's some good news and some bad news."

"Just tell me." I demanded.

  "He died three times during the operation..." I didn't listen to what else he had to say all I heard was died and three times and I started hysterically crying but Michael came over and hugged me and told me it would all be okay.

"Hey...hey. The doctor said he was stable but didn't know when he would wake up he's fine..." Michael told me.

  I was hiccuping from how hard I was crying. The doctor let me see him though. I was sitting next to him by his bed. it looked like he was barley breathing, they have him on life support.

"Come on Ed wake up for me.." He wasn't even moving. I can't lose him, I really can't. We need each other and if he dies....I don't know what I would do.

  I stood in there for hours then all the sudden his heart rate monitor thing started beeping out of control and all these nurses and doctors came in and told me I had to get out and just like at the scene where he got shot they pulled me out kicking and screaming and the last thing I heard was "hurry we're losing him!" And that's when I lost it. I felt like I was dying too and that's when everything went black.

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  I was in a huge wide open field looking around I didn't know where I was or how I even got here. But it was so beautiful it was kinda how that field Bella and Edward were in, in Twilight. I heard someone clear their throat so I turned around.

  "Ed..." He smiled that Big grin he has.

"What is this place?" His smile faded and he looked sad so he looked more toward the ground now.

"No..." I heard him take in a breath

"I'm sorry babe.."

"You shouldn't have saved me you should be in my place, alive and breathing." He just shook his head no.

"I love you so much you know that? but if they can't bring me back soon I'll die." 

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   I woke up and all I saw was white I turned my head and saw Harry.

"What happened?" He looked up and saw I was awake.

"You were so...what's the word for it, I don't know but you were so upset and crying that you passed out." I nodded my head remembering everything.

  "Ed..." He looked up at me and kind of smiled but a sad one. "He's...he's in a coma and they don't know when he will wake up and if he will even remember anything..." No. That means he won't remember me...

A/N: so if you didn't catch on the italics was a dream....