Love Again

Chapter 9

 Two weeks. 14 days. He hasn't called me, I haven't called him. I don't know if he is just being stubborn but he hasn't made any kind of contact with me. So I left. Not literally I'm with the 5SOS boys on their mini tour thing in North America. One Direction is on one too but their in South America right now doing shows first.

Harry told me not to go in case Ed called and I said he knew if I wasn't with them I'd be with Luke and he knows my number and he knows Luke's so it's not like he can't get a hold of us. I'm currently backstage in boys' dressing room with Luke, he's trying to warm up his vocals.

"Sing don't stop." I stated. He started fixing the chords then looked up to me.

"But it's not acoustic." He said.

"Then make it acoustic." So within the hour they had before the show they made an acoustic version of don't stop.

"Show time boys." One of the stage managers said to them.

"Wish me luck babe." Luke said so I gave him a tight hug and he leaned down to my ear. "He'll come around. I promise." So I hugged him even tighter.

"Good luck." I whispered in his ear.

  They opened up with one of my new favorite songs with their new album called good girls.

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  We got to their next destination the next morning and we're in LA and I'm casually scrolling through my twitter feed and I saw that Ed's manager Stuart tweeted and said they were in LA as well. "Shit." I murmured.

  Ashton looked up. "Hey now. that language won't be tolerated in our dressing room." He said with a smirk on his face, then I knew he was messing around so I just laughed.

"No I'm just messing, what happens to be the problem?" He asked.

I just inhaled deeply. "I just...Ed's in town too and I don't really wanna talk to him." He looked like he was thinking.

"Well maybe the best thing is to talk to him? I mean he was in love with you right? He saved you from your psycho ex he has to be in love with you." I just looked away I didn't really know what to say in reply.

"You don't think he loves you anymore do you?" He asked. I shook my head no.

"Look from my perspective he can't just not love you anymore. If he says he doesn't then he's lying. anyone would be lucky to have you you're gorgeous."

I blushed so bad that I think my face looked like a tomato. I used to have a major thing for Ashton when I started listening to 5 seconds of summer.

   "Thanks Ash." He smiled back at me in reply.

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2 months later.

   Well it's been two months since I've had that talk with Ashton and two months and two months and 14 days since I've seen Ed. I've watched some of his interviews and he's said he has a girlfriend that isn't famous but won't reveal who she is. Harry was over at Luke's talking with him about the Where We Are Tour and where they're playing with them.

  "You're still watching his interviews about his 'secret' girlfriend?" Harry asked. I just looked over at him and nodded my head yes.

"This is embarrassing, I'm just embarrassing myself. He doesn't even love me anymore...." I told Harry while I let a tear slip down my face.

"Hey I'm like your big brother...talk to me." He said.

  "I just don't understand why he hasn't called or anything in the past two months it's like he doesn't even care about my feelings at all, like...like he thinks I didn't even love him or something." I explained.

Once I realized what I said I covered my mouth with my hand "You...love him?" He asked.

"Yes." I whispered, then rushed out and left Luke's flat.

It was raining outside and I was crying while running in the rain all the way to my flat I rented out after I got back with Luke from the boys' tour. All the sudden I ran into a hard chest and fell to the ground I looked up. Ed.

 "Courtnie....what-you're crying babe. what's the matter?" I love you and you wont love me back. I didn't answer him.

"Come on..you're running from somewhere in the pouring rain and you're crying your beautiful eyes out. You're too pretty to cry, stop it and tell me why." He said while touching my cheek with his finger.

"You left." I whispered to him.

"I-its complicated."

"Really Ed? please explain to me how fucking complicated it is. I'm sure it's so complicated that you didn't call for two months for."

  He just stared at me. "No. No that's not it. You could never love me back what was the point?!" I was beyond livid. So just because he thought I didn't love him back he decided to never call me again?

"No. you don't get to say that. You don't get to just decide that we're over and you get to move on with someone else."

"Why? it's true you'd never love me back and we both know it and who said I had a new girlfriend?" You did.

 "You did! believe it or not I've watched every interview you've done since we got in that fight, I know about this 'secret' girlfriend you won't tell anyone about." He looked pissed. More than pissed, but really hot. We're both soaking wet from the pouring rain.

"I was talking about you so it'd get your fucking attention." he gritted through his teeth. "but...we're not even together I...I don't.."

 So he lied about having a girlfriend in interviews but he was actually talking about me? I don't get it. "I could never get over you even if you could never love me back."

  And I swear I saw a tear slip down his face. So I kissed him, and he kissed back. Our mouths were moving together in sync and he pulled me closer and held my hips. I licked his bottom lip with my tongue and asked for entrance and he gave me access.

   We fought for dominance and he won and started kissing down my neck towards my ear "I love you.." I whispered. He stopped kissing my neck and looked up at me.

"What?"

  I just stared into his ocean blue eyes. "I love you...I've loved you even before that fight happened I just didn't have the nerve to say it until now and...and I love you Ed I love you so much."

  But before he could do anything we heard gun shots and the thing we shouldn't have done is turned around because the second I did another gun shot went off but Ed jumped in front of me to save me. 

A/N: sorry about the cliffhanger there.