Love Again

Chapter 45

Ed ended up coming back hours later that night after Kailey had left. He didn't seem to be mad which was good on my behalf because I've never seen Ed pissed off and I honestly don't want to. 

"Are you mad at me?" I asked him nervously.

"No, baby. I don't have a reason to be. You didn't do anything wrong. I promise." He said rubbing my back and pulling me to him.

"Are you sure? You seemed mad when you left and slammed the door." I stated.

"I was mad at Luke for coming to our flat and flat out asking you to pretty much choose between the both of us. But I just went out for a pint or two and I was fine babe. No worries I'm not mad at you I promise." He said and kissed me on the forehead.

"Okay." I said and sighed. I scooted down so I was laying on the pillows on my side of the bed. "You know I still have shit at my apartment to get. I just don't know when to get them because I don't know when Liam won't be there."

"Why would it matter if he was?" He asked taking a drink of beer. 

"If you know Nick at all, you'd know all they'd be doing in that apartment is the dirty dirty."

"Oh good god." He said with a look on his face like he was horrified to even think of the idea of that happening.

"I think it's about that time that I fly my mom and stepdad out here but I just don't have the money for them to come out here and visit." I explained to him cause he still hasn't met my mom, he's seen her just never actually been introduced to her before.

"I'll fly them out don't worry about it baby."

"Ed, I'm not going to make you do that."

"You haven't seen them in almost seven months babe. I'm flying them out." He said and kissed me on my cheek and went to his nightstand and pulled out his macbook.

"I'll book them a flight right now. When do you want them here?" He asked.

"A month from now maybe? We'll have been dating for about... 7,8 months by then." I explained.

He closed the macbook and slid it to the end of the bed and crawled over on top of me. "What does that have to do with anything?" He asked and started kissing down my neck.

I moaned. "Ed, not tonight please."

He groaned. "Why not?" He asked and slipped his hands under my shirt so he was rubbing my skin back and fourth with his thumbs till he got to the back of my bra, he was about to unhook it until I stopped him.

"I'm on my period." I stated kind of embarrassed. We've never really had a conversation about this before and we never came across a time where we had to deal with it when I was on it before we had sex.

"You don't like need girly things do you?" He asked. I laughed and shook my head no.

"No, no I don't. I just have cramps like super bad." I explained to him.

"Lay down." He said, more like demanded.

I didn't ask why because I knew what he was going to do. He neared down to my level and sat on his side with his hand holding his head up, elbow resting on the mattress of our double sized bed and lifted my shirt up about mid way and started rubbing my stomach back and fourth.

I closed my eyes peacefully because it was a bit relaxing. "This is nice." I said. 

"You feel better?" He asked and I nodded my head yes but then opened my eyes pleading him not to stop and he laughed.

"I won't stop, now close your eyes and rest, you've had a stressful day baby."

"Okay.." I whispered and eventually fell asleep.

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Ed's POV

I was just watching her sleep while I rubbed her stomach. She was perfect to me, I know we haven't even been together for a year but I just want her for the rest of my life. I want to love her, to hold her. I want her to know that I will always take care of her.

I want to have kids with her. So many kids. I can't believe she thought I was mad at her earlier, I could never be mad at her. I mean I could it just wouldn't last very long with the way she pouts at me I just can't ever stay mad at her. 

I love her. God do I love her. I am so lucky to love this woman, I don't know where I would be in a state of mind right now without her, she is the best thing to ever happen to me and honestly I don't want to be with anyone else. Ever. 

She would be it for me. I just wanna marry her. I wanna marry  her so bad. I wanna grab the ring out of the drawer in my dresser and just put the ring on her finger and tell her I want to marry her and have her tell me she will. 

So I did just that.

a/n honestly i wrote this out of the blue without having an idea and while talking to a drunk shawna on the phone. yes, for those of you who don't know she's my friend in real life and she's a character in the book.