Love Again

Chapter 49

a/n about six more chapters guiseeeee.  

I've been avoiding leaving Kailey's house like the black plague the past three days. She had come in the room I was staying in earlier telling me he was having some sort of secret gig at a bar and she happened to get a ticket and gave it to me to go to. He started playing a half hour ago and I knew he wasn't playing long cause he had to go back to London. 

I started walking towards the bar and gave the bouncer my ticket and ID to get inside. I went and got a table in the very back where he couldn't see me. 

"Alright guys I'm going to play a very important song and I need everyone to settle down. This song is about the one person who means the world to me, and she slipped through my fingers and I don't know if I'll ever get her back." He said and I swear I saw a tear coming down his eyes.

He started to strum the guitar, I had never heard him play this before so I wonder if he just wrote it.

When your legs don't work like they used to before, and I can't sweep you off of your feet will your mouth still remember the taste of my love? Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?

And darling I, will be loving you till seventy and baby my heart could still fall as hard as 23 and I'm thinking about how people fall in love in mysterious ways maybe just the touch of a hand. Well me, I fall in love with you every single day and I just wanna tell you I am.

So honey now, take me into your loving arms kiss me under the light of a thousand stars place your head on my beating heart I'm thinking out loud that maybe we found love right where we are.

When my hairs all gone and my memory fades, and the crowds don't remember my name, when my hands don't play the strings the same way I know you'll still love me the same.

Cause honey, your soul could never grow old, it's evergreen. And baby your smiles forever in my mind and memory i'm thinking about how people fall in love in mysterious ways, maybe it's all part of a plan. Well maybe I'll just keep making the same mistakes hoping that you'll understand.

But baby now, take me into your loving arms kiss me under the light of a thousand stars place your head on my beating heart, thinking out loud. That maybe we found love right where we are.

So baby now, take me into your loving arms, kiss me under the light of a thousand stars, oh darling place your head on my beating heart I'm thinking out loud. That maybe we  found love right where we are, oh baby we found love right where we are, and we found love right where we are. 

I was honestly in tears, he's still in love with me and loves me more than I could've ever imagined. I was about to have a panic attack because I didn't know what to do, I was still so in love with that man in front of me but he did something terrible until I got a text that explained everything.

Unknown: It's harry don't ask how I got your number just know I did. I know your at his gig before he leaves back home and if you're smart you'll listen to me. Ed never slept with her willingly. She drugged him the day after you spent with him in the studio. he must've known about it somehow i don't know but i got it out of the slut bag. hurry and get him back!  H xxx

Oh my god.

Everything makes sense now. He had just announced he was leaving and I was just frozen in my seat and couldn't move, couldn't do anything I couldn't even talk. Finally at the last second I stood up and ran towards him but security stopped me.

"Can't go past ma'am." He stated.

"But..you don't understand he's the love of my life..he-" He cut me off, of course.

"That's what they all say..." He said and pushed me aside. 

"God damn it." I muttered. 

I pushed through the crowd that was still here and ran for the front exit to try and find his car that he was being driven around in. I saw it  from a distance and started running for him again with tears running down my face.

"Ed!" I screamed, he still didn't hear me and continued talking with Stuart, he pulled his phone out of his pocket and looked at a text or something and started looking around for someone but then looked like he was probably being lied to.

He whispered something into Stuarts ear and then walked across the street and I started following him but didn't have the courage to say anything to him, and he walked back out, about to cross the street to the car when I called him name and he looked but still didn't see me and walked and got in the car and left to the airport without me.

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I felt even worse then the break up, even though I broke up with him without telling him I just threw the ring and told Shawna and Harry to give it to him and I was leaving. This heartbreak is literally the only thing in the world that makes me to not want to have a heart anymore. He had become a part of my life that would never be forgotten, his smile could make the most miserable person happy and was forever etched into my eyes.

Salty tears of frustration streamed down my face, I was just another stranger in the crowd of the bar that no one cared about. There was in a deep sense of numbness in the pit of my stomach but at the same time, a feeling of despair which I had no explanation for. I just watched him walk away without hesitation, feeling like I'd never see him again.

I struggled with the urge to run up to him and tell him to stay but with the shock of what Harry told me I just couldn't I felt like I was in quick sand and I was stuck and literally couldn't fucking move. I felt like a thousand daggers were being thrown at my heart and they were all being twisted but I was feeling dizzy and nauseated all at the same time. 

I have to get to that airport, I need to. I need him to hold me again I can't live without this man in my life, I literally can't. 

a/n probably most heart wrentching chapter i've written i teared up a lot btw so sorry if you cry ):