Love Again

Chapter 42

i didn't win the tickets ): i'm sad. but i'm listening to his acoustic songs with writing this chapter :3

I didn't go to Luke's till the next day, I was still upset though. I was heading towards Luke's apartment and there was tears running down my face. I ran up the stairs and knocked on the door repeatedly. I expected Luke to open up but it was Ashton, but I guess I should've since their roommates.

"Courtnie...you okay?" He asked.

"Where's Luke?" 

"He's actually not here, he went back to Sydney to visit his mom and brothers."

"Oh." I said.

"Are...do you want to come in? Want a cup of tea?" And I nodded my head in response

Ashton was wearing a pair of black skinny jeans with holes in the knees, a nirvana t-shirt with a bandana around his head and some glasses. He's been wearing glasses lately and he just looks like a cutie pie honestly.

I was sat down on the couch and Ashton came walking in with tea. "Wanna tell me whats up?" He asked.

"It's just Ed." I said in reply.

"I know we don't talk much, but you're a really pretty girl you shouldn't be crying." He said and wiped one of my tears.

"God, Ashton your so sweet you know that? You're the sweetest guy probably ever that I've known and I hope one day someone sees that because someone deserves to have you in their life."

He was blushing a little, I don't think anyone has really told him this before. "Thanks, you're really nice." He said awkwardly.

"I know we don't talk much Ash, I just made this awkward didn't I?" I asked.

"No, no I'm sorry I'm always the one to make things awkward. Are you fine now though?" He asked and put his hand on my shoulder rubbing his thumb back and fourth on my arm.

"Yeah, it's just...I don't think Ed trusts me."

"Well do you trust him?" He asked.

I had to think for a minute, do I trust him? Yeah, I do god what kind of question am I asking myself. Of course I trust him.

"Yeah I do."

"Then maybe whatever he isn't telling you is because you haven't told him something?"

And then it hit me. He doesn't know what happened with Ethan at all, besides the fact that I made out with Luke that's the only thing he knows that happened. God I need to tell him, I don't know why I didn't but then again it never came up in conversation.

"Oh my god." I breathed.

"I've gotta go." I told him and hugged him and thanked him for the tea and left. 

I ran down the stairs of the complex they lived in and hailed a taxi.

"Where to?" The cab driver asked.

"86th and 5th please." (a/n i just made that up but it makes me sound like we're in new york and not london.) "And step on it please." I said.

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I had to look in the studio first because I felt like he either went back or he stayed there last night. When he gets really into writing he'll stay overnight either sleeping or sometimes staying up the whole time writing but Harry had texted me telling me they went back to his place for some beers last night.

I was in Ed's bed thinking he'd come back and it was currently 12:55 am and I had a feeling he wasn't coming back. My phone dinged alerting me I had a text message.