Love Again

Chapter 48

I've come to the decision that I feel like I've just been in a car accident but more like a fender bender spiraling, at least on the outside, on the inside I feel like I've literally been in a car accident and I'm dying.

I'm crashing.

I'm going to avoid being fixed because honestly I don't want to be fixed, not by this, not by him.

One day I'm just going to have enough of this, and just give up.

"One ticket to London, England please." I said and pursed my lips. 

I feel numb, absolutely numb and I can't feel, can't breathe. I don't feel anything anymore honestly.

The flight attendant handed me my plane ticket. "Next flight out is in an hour miss." She said.

"Thanks." I replied and went and sat down until my flight was called.

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I finally had gotten back to London after a ten hour flight and headed to Ed's flat to go grab my things and get my ass out of London, I can't think straight with everyone around me I need to think of a place to go and fast.

I hailed a taxi at the airport after I gathered my bags and told him the address of Ed's flat.

"You look a little distressed ma'am." The cab driver said.

I gave him a sad smile and shrugged my shoulders. 

He had finally dropped me off at Ed's flat and thankfully I still had a key to get inside. I walked inside and was greeted by his cat Graham so I bent down and pet him. I finally stood up and went into his bedroom to pack most of my clothes and get the hell out of here before he finds a flight back and comes here and finds me and convinces me to stay.

When I thought about it, I realized Kailey and her best friend Eilzabeth just recently moved to Australia. That's where I'm going to go. I'm going to Australia cause that's the last place he would ever even think to find me. I texted Kailey to tell her I planned on visiting but not why I was and that I'd be without Ed.

I had everything I needed for now and walked out of his flat without a second glace and headed for the airport.

Ed's POV

I don't remember last night very much but I remember getting very very drunk. A banging on my hotel door woke me up, my head was pounding very bad and it felt like my head was splitting in two.

I got out of the bed and opened the door. It was Harry but Shawna was in front of him and she looked pissed to say the least.

"How could you do this to her?! You made her call off the whole thing!" She yelled at me and I had no idea what the hell she was talking about.

"Baby calm down." Harry told her.

"No! Haz, I won't calm down he broke her fucking heart did you not see her in our hotel room last night?"

"Wait what are you guys going on about?" I asked them.

"You don't remember?" Harry asked and I shook my head no.

Shawna stepped in front of Harry again. "You wanna know how you broke her heart? You basically told her she ruins everything for you and that you were doing the secretary at the fucking studio."

I just stared at her dumbfounded because I honest to god had no idea what the hell she was talking about I've never cheated on Courtnie ever, and she should know that and if she was here last night she knows I can be an asshole when I get drunk she should've expected that.

"I've never-" I started but she cut me off.

"Stop trying to get out of this Ed, she gone we don't know where she is, she shut her phone off, probably got a new number all because of you!" She said and pointed her finger at me.

"Well, how do I find her?" I asked them.

"You should probably get a flight out to London, if I know her as well as I have the past couple years, she's probably went to your flat and grabbed her things and left but she could be anywhere, she could've went to America back home for all we know." Harry explained.

"Alright I've gotta get out of here." I said and grabbed my bag with all my clothes in it and went and checked out of the hotel and hailed a cab to the airport.

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I arrived in London 10 hours later and took a cab back to my flat. When I opened the door to the flat it seemed fine but then again I could be wrong about that, I went to my room and opened up the wardrobe I had her clothes in and they were all gone, literally everything of hers in my room was gone. Just gone. 

I went and looked in the dresser that had some of her clothes there, those were gone as well. Where could she have gone in less then then ten hours? I wonder....

I wonder if Kailey would happen to know where she is, I still have her number.

"Hello?" She answered.

"Hey...it's Ed. Uhm, have you talked to Courtnie recently? Do you know where she is?" I asked.

"No, but even if I did I wouldn't tell you, you broke her heart." She said and hung up. She knows where she is but she just won't tell me. God damn it!

I was so mad at myself for this because I probably treated her like shit last night. I can't waste time trying to find her right now, I need to go to Australia to do some more promo.

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Courtnie's POV 

I overheard Kailey on the phone the other night, I knew she was talking to Ed, I knew he was trying to find me. Everyone was but I didn't want to talk to anyone, I'm so heartbroken that I don't feel any emotion right now.

I feel dead, honestly.

I was looking through my timeline on twitter and saw a tweet that made my heart drop.

@edsheeran just landed in Australia, got a lot on this week, but first a nap is on the cards. 

Shit. 

He's here? And for the week? Oh god it'll just make it easier for him to find me this way. I should've looked at his tour schedule before I came out here.

a/n okay so i've been super busy lately. me and kailey just started a youtube channel called clifford and sheeran i'll post our video from last night on the side but we had 5sos songs going in the background and apparently it can't be viewed in some countries cause of legal rights or whatever..we'll have to make another one or something if you can't watch it. i've been starting to write some new stories but haven't posted them obviously and i'm starting a job in about a month so updates won't be as frequent.