Love Again

Chapter 44

got a question about when i update. well usually i update every other day which means mondays, wednesdays, fridays and sometimes on sundays. sunday is a maybe but if i do then i switch days and do updates tuesdays, thursdays and saturdays. i would like to update everyday but i just can't sometimes i don't have ideas right off the bat and if i don't a day i update i just write as i go. this will probably be a short update btw.

Kailey came back for a week or two to London but I knew the real reason she was here.

 Michael. 

Me, Kailey and Ed were all sitting on the couch watch the fault in our stars, well minus me just her and Ed cause I'm blankly staring at Ed while he watches this but he's seen it a million times.

"I've seen this too many times to count, I'm going to go grab my guitar." He said while lifting my head up off his lap. Kailey paused the movie and got up and went into our kitchen.

I followed her.

"You and Ed have a really nice place." 

"It's not the biggest but we like it."

"Well why don't you guys get a bigger place, I mean you know how much money he actually has right?" She asked.

"Yeah but I'm not with him cause of his money, and I know how much money he has but we like his small flat, it has a little upstairs and a nice kitchen and our bedroom plus I think Nick loves having me not there so him and Liam...nevermind."

She was about to reply but she heard Ed strumming his guitar. "Does he just randomly play like that? Like, he's been playing like all day."

"Mhm. That and we makeout."

"That's gross." She said with a look of disgust on her face.

"Hey, thinking of you and Michael making out...wait let me rephrase that. Walking in on you and Michael making out is also gross. He's like my brother."

"Kiss me like you wanna be loved..." I heard Ed singing in the background.

"Wanna be loved, wanna be lovveeeeeeddddd!" I sang very horrendously loud. Ed looked up from his guitar and looked at me and shook his head.

"You're terrible at singing baby, don't."

I pouted at him.

"I'm sorry." He smiled at me and then continued on with playing and strumming the guitar.

"Is this all you guys do with your life? Play fight, mess around, make out, sing badly with him?" Kailey asked. 

"Pretty much."

"Anyways," I said. "Did you really come here to witness our weird dysfunctional relationship or did you just secretly come to see Michael?" I asked.

"Michael." She said.

"Too busy?" I asked and she nodded her head yes.

"He doesn't even know I'm here though."

"How does he not know you're here?" I asked

"The boys wanted me to surprise him cause he's been down lately but then they got pulled into this last minute signing thing at HMV and ugh." (a/n hmv's are like the claries stores in the us. hmv's are only in the uk as far as i'm aware.)

"Oh. Are you guys like together?" I asked.

She shook her head no. "That's what I was hoping would happen when I came here. Luke tells me he never stops talking about me."

Luke.

"You talk to Luke?" I asked suspiciously.

She nodded her head. "He kind of told me what happened between you guys. How you told him you didn't like him like that and how you were in love with Ed and not him."

"Look I'm in love with Ed I have been since the day of Harry and Shawna's wedding and nothing and nobody can change the way I feel about him. I'm sorry you feel this way about me and that I don't feel the same back. But I promise you'll find someone okay?" I told him

"But what if I don't? I don't regret kissing you that day at the concert."

"I don't regret it either Luke and the only reason I don't is because it got me out of a bad place in my life. Being with Ethan is the worst thing I could've done and Michael helped me out of it, and that kinda brings me to now. Ed's helped me with a lot of self problems since we've been together. Again I'm sorry Luke I think it's best if you leave." 

"Don't come running to me when he breaks your heart."

I was too stoned to even remember that conversation with Luke that night. And now I remember everything. I felt a tear running down my cheek. Kailey came over and hugged me.

"Why are you crying?" She asked.

"He was my best friend and now he hates me because I chose Ed over him."

"He doesn't he just wishes you felt the same way."

"I can never feel what I feel for Ed for him, if he'd just stop being so selfish for one second..."

"I think he's going to realize that you don't want him...."

I let go of her embrace. "Good, cause friends is all me and him will ever be." I said kind of angered. 

And through out all of this I didn't hear Ed's guitar and I looked over to the love seat and he wasn't there anymore but his guitar was and then I heard the front door slam closed.

"Great." I whispered.

"Hey he has nothing to be mad for you didn't do anything wrong. Luke did by coming here that night practically telling you to chose him over Ed."

"But, you've never seen Ed mad though...and neither have I." I whispered the last part.

a/n ooooh what do you think ed's gunna do????

& that gif of ed on the side is like my fav. especially glasses wearing ed. i love it when he wears his glasses. (inserts 568306 heart eyed emoji's here.)