Love Again

Chapter 43

a/n literally still in heartbreak. & now i'm in even more heartbreak because i just realized that i saw one direction and 5sos a month ago today DDDDD: i'm crying.

CRY WITH ME GUISE.

I'M LITERALLY SO BAD RN. I'M FLIRTING WITH A GUY WHO HAS A GF. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. I'M A HORRIBLE PERSON. (SOBBING.)

"It started about two years ago with my ex girlfriend. I thought she was the one and she wasn't. I proposed and everything, but..."

"But what Ed? What happened?"

"She left me at the alter." His head looked down and he wouldn't look at me. I was in awe, that is the last thing I expected to ever happen to him.

"Is that all that happened Ed?" And she shook his head no.

"She left me there because she was really sick, she was going to die Courtnie. She didn't want to tell me so she fucking left."

"How do you know?"

"She left me...she left me a letter in my guitar case telling me everything." He said, I knew this was hard for him to tell me.

"What was everything Ed?"

He lifted his head up and looked at me. "Everything that she didn't feel for me. She was only with me cause she felt bad for me. It was all a fucking dare for her to date me between her and her stupid friends." He said, I feel as if he was more angry than sad.

"Why did she do this to me?" He whispered. At that moment I just wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him and rubbed his back.

"It'll be okay Ed, I promise. I'll make it okay."

I pulled out of the hug and he just looked at me. "I heard about a year later that she'd passed from a brain tumor and lung cancer. I can't believe I was so stupid to see through all her lies."

"Ed it's okay. I promise you."

"My nightmares are about her. Our fights, memories, flashbacks, everything. And they won't go away and that's the one thing I hate about being with you is she will always be there because these dreams won't go away, and I hate that. I just want to be with you and no one else, just you." He said.

"Then we will be, don't let those dreams get to you and they'll go away. Or you can get help to make them go away. It'll be fine I promise." I said and grabbed his cheeks and kissed him sweetly on the lips.

"By the way, I'd never expect you to cheat on me, that's the last thing I'd expect you to do."

"Good because I wouldn't even think twice about doing that to you. Ever. I don't want you to ever think I would."

"I don't. Now, let me sing this fucking song to you okay?" He asked and I nodded my head.

"Okay, uhm turn around and sit on my lap." I did as I was told but was confused as to why he was making me do this. He reached over and grabbed his guitar and put it over my lap. "I'm going to teach you to play too." He said with a smug look on his face.

"No. Ethan tried to teach me to play too, which in fact he was horrible by the way didn't get taught the right way. Anyways with my technical skills do you really think you'd be able to teach me?"

"Yes, even though you'd be shit at it." He said and I pouted. "I'm sorry babe." He said back and kissed my pouting lip.

"You should tell whatsherface to not have such an attitude and let me in to see my boyfriend."

"Oh, yeah I was surprised she let you in."

"Well make sure she lets me in next time so she doesn't call security...or you know Mr.Styles as she recalls him, doesn't she know he's practically my brother in law?"