Love Again

Chapter 23

A/N: just in all honesty i was going to put the plot i've been thinking of at the very end of the book but now i'm changing it. it's going to be in the next couple chapters leading up to it and this chapter is just going to be fluff between courtnie and ed but idc because ed's an angel <3

It's been about 4 months since telling Ed everything and his tour is over for a while until he starts doing more shows soon. Shawna is almost six months pregnant and they're having a boy. Her and Harry recently asked us to be the baby's godparents and we're more than thrilled to be, they said because we're their best friends and also because if they had to choose anyone else to raise their baby is anything happened to them it would be us. Also because we can't have kids and they want us to be in the baby's life as much as we can.

But what Ed doesn't know is the doctor had called me about a month ago and said I was actually able to have a baby, they looked at the chart wrong and realized that I can and we can start trying again anytime soon. I haven't told him because before I got the phone call Ed knew I was still upset about not being able to have a baby with him so, he got us a puppy and surprisingly he's great with all our cats in the flat. He's a Pomeranian-husky mix and he's the most adorable thing in the world and he's our new 'baby.'

Flashback

"Ed! Where are you taking me?" 

"It's a surprise baby." He told me but he had me blindfolded after our day out in London and we were on our way back into the flat. He was guiding me the whole time and didn't know what was going on or who was in our flat or even what was in our flat.

"Okay sit down babe," And he sat me down on the couch.

"But don't take the blindfold off okay?" And I said okay and then all the sudden I felt something in my lap.

"Ed, baby please tell me you didn't get another cat. We don't need another cat."

He untied my blindfold and I opened my eyes and saw a little pomskie sitting in my lap. "Oh my god Ed she's adorable! It's a she right?" And he nodded his head yes.

"What are we going to name her?" He asked.

"Cocoa, and no it's not because of Nick cause you know that's what I call him sometimes other than you know asshole and bitch and every other word I call him."

"Alright babe." And he bent down and kissed me on the lips.

"Thank you so much Ed, you didn't need to do this." 

"I did, and I'm glad I did. I love to see that smile on your face," He smiled down at me.

"I love you. Always." He breathed against my lips.

I was laying in our bed remembering the day he got her for me and surprised me and I loved him so much for it. He just got out of the shower and came into bed with me along with Cocoa who now sleeps at the end of our bed every night while Graham lays on the other side of Ed while I lay on his chest.

"Hey...wanna hear a joke?" He asked.

"God no. Please don't."

"Why?! You always want to listen to Harry's when he asks you when we go over there!"

"That's because he has a sense of humor and it's cute because he thinks it's funnier than everyone else does."

"What do you call an elephant that doesn't mean anything?" And I just stared at him because I already knew the answer.

"An irrelephant." I knew inside he was trying so hard not to bust out laughing.

"I know. You told that joke on Ellen, I watched that interview when I was totally obsessed with you."

"Wait...I thought we already knew each other then..." I shook my head no. "That was before the One Direction concert I went to with Shawna and Nick. That was before I even saw you in concert for the first time."

"So you met all the boys on their uh stadium tour in America right?" I nodded my head yes. "And then when Shawna got together with Harry a while after...she met you and knew I was totally in love with you and thought to introduce us but I thought I was too weird for you so I just didn't talk to you to save me from embarrassment." I said.

"We're practically the same person babe, I don't understand why you would've thought that."

"Do you remember the person I was like a year and a half ago? I was scared to even be with another boy because of Ethan, you know that."

"Speaking of him, are you alright? You've been acting weird lately like not as happy."

What he doesn't know is I've just had this bad feeling something bad is going to happen soon, and I don't know what it is but it's not good. I have a bad feeling it's going to happen to one of us and honestly I can't handle another break up or accident or one of us losing our memories again. I can't and I won't go through with it.

"It's just...I feel as if something bad is going to happen and I feel as if it'll happen to one of us and honestly I can't handle another break up or accident and one of us losing our memories, I won't and can't handle that again and I don't know what I'm going to be able to do if it does."

He sits up in bed and sits against the headboard and holds out his hands for me and I'm reluctant to take them so he takes hold of my arms and pulls me onto his lap. "I promise you we aren't breaking up anytime soon okay? I can promise you that. Accident's on the other hand I can't cause those could happen anytime but nothing is going to happen to us okay?"

"Enough shit has happened to us to make me worry and I just...I literally can't lose you Ed. Honestly I don't know how I'd be able to handle that, I thought I was going to lose you when you got shot and I didn't know what to do and I could barely tell your mom over the phone what happened and.."

"Shhh. Okay. Nothing is going to happen I don't know why you think it is cause it isn't."

He rocked me back and fourth until I fell asleep that night.

Ed's POV

After Courtnie fell asleep I called Shawna seeing if I could find answers as to why she thinks something tragic is going to happen to the both of us because I don't really understand why she thinks anything is going to happen to us, but then again her ex is psychotic.

"Hello?" She answered

"Hey, figured you'd be awake. Uhm...has Courtnie mentioned anything about her thinking something bad is going to happen to one of us? She was just telling me something about her thinking something bad was going to happen and she couldn't handle another break up between us or an accident."

"Uh no. I know she wouldn't be able to though. You didn't see her after that fight you and her had after you came back and Michael was at your house, she was a wreck without you..and then after you got shot and you being in a coma, she got worse I'm glad you woke up when you did."

"Alright I'm not going to make anything of it I mean Ethan I'm sure found his way out of jail but we haven't heard from him in months through threats or anything. I shouldn't be worried should I?"

"I don't know, just be careful okay?" And she hung up after that. It was like she knew something was going to happen too. Did they know something I didn't?

A/N: okay I hope this is a good update? maybe not maybe yes? i will be home all by myself tomorow so i'll probably update again hopefully if i can think of something i don't have this story planned out at all like other authors on here i just randomly come up with stuff and write it out but i have almost 8 days till wwa and i see the boys and i don't know how to handle that. first time i'm seeing them and honestly i feel like they're not even real people. but i can bet you between seeing 5sos and 1D i'll be crying so much so i need to bring tissues. but their dog cocoa on the side <3333