My breathing became ragged, and I found it hard to breath. A wave of panic rushed through me. I wheezed through the pain, and stumbled back as I tried to grab something from my pocket.
Inhaler... Inhaler... Where are you?
"Y/N!" I heard someone yell before I fell to the floor with a thud.
Everything else was a blur. My lungs felt like they were being strangled every time I let out a small breath. I should be terrified, but I don't feel like I am?
This is a nightmare. It all must be. Jungkook saying that I was a pesk- that he was tired of me. He wanted to break up with me. It all must've been one big nightmare.
My eyes fluttered open, and the first thing I saw was a plain white ceiling. I must be in the hospital. A beeping sound caught my attention, making me turn my head to see a monitor which was tracking my heart beat. Next to it stood an oxygen tank to help with my breathing.
I look over to the other side, and my heart dropped down to my stomach. Jungkook, with his head down, sniffled as he held my hand.
"Jungkook?" I said with all the strength I had left. Once he heard my hoarse voice, Jungkook snapped his head up, and gazed at me with his red, puffy eyes.
"Y/N, Oh my god you're awake." He flashed me a broken smile, as tears began forming in his eyes. It broke my heart to see him like this. "I thought I lost you."
I was speechless. So what happened wasn't a nightmare; it was all real. I closed my eyes, and swallowed the lump in my throat. "Where's everyone else?"
Jungkook lets go of my hand, wipes his face with his sleeve. "They left an hour ago, but they'll come back soon. I stayed behind so you wouldn't be alone. How do you feel? Is there anything that you want? Do you want water? Food?"
I released a sigh, and decided to cut the tension with a knife.
"All I want you to do is to get out of here."
His eyes filled with shock as soon as those words left my mouth. "Do you think I can forgive you that easily after what you said about me?" My voice cracked. "I still hate you if you don't already know. I hate you for making me feel this way- for putting me in this situation! If you didn't want me in the first place, you should've just told me instead of-!"
Before I could continue what I had to say, Jungkook interrupts me with a kiss.
My eyes shut tightly, and tears rolled down my cheeks. I felt broken. His lips were warm and comforting unlike the bitter, cold air in the room that made me quiver. I pushed him away and shook my head. "Don't do this to me."
"I was selfish, Y/N. Extremely selfish and blind. I knew you had asthma and your anxiety attacks from the very beginning," He broke down mid-sentence, but eventually pulled himself together.
"With the hectic schedule and this new album coming up, the stress got to me and I took it out on you when you were already dealing with so much shit. God, I'm such an idiot for not being mindful of you."
I bit my bottom lip as I tried to hold back more tears, but all I could do was cry. This may have been the first time I had seen Jungkook like this - vulnerable and broken like me. It feels wrong to say this, but it was comforting to see him this way. He seemed more human, and not what people perceived him as.
"I understand if you hate me, but Y/N," Jungkook croaked out.
"I still want you."
And there they were. The words I dreaded finally left his mouth. I sucked in a breath as I felt tears run down my face. After all he said about me, how he made me feel, where I ended up; what should I do? What should I say? My brain and my heart fought with each other until one of them won.
"I'm sorry, Jungkook."
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I'm sorry y'all, but not everyone has happy endings:/
JK! Everyone deserves a happy ending :)
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"Jungkook! Put those down! It's for the boys!" I shouted, but instantly giggled at my dorky boyfriend who had his mouth stuffed with brownies.
"Buff the-uw tho goof (but they're so good)."
I chuckled at his cuteness, and pulled him into a hug. I looked up at his confused face. "What's this for?" He asked.
"I just wanted to hug you. Is that bad?"
"No, no. Just a little shocked that's all." His arms snaked around my waist, and he pulled me closer to him. We both stood there, hugging like we were the only humans left on earth.
If you couldn't tell already, I took him back. My heart won. After seeing him so vulnerable and so human, it oddly reminded me of how I first fell in love with him. We've been happier than ever since. A few fights here and there, but we'd talk it out at the end of the day. I love him so much, it hurts to not be with him, and I know he feels the same way. I still love this man.
I still want him.
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Inspired by The Truth Untold
I fucking love that song TT
Since y'all wanted a pt 2, I decided to write it for y'all:) and I felt like I'm Sorry deserved a pt 2 lol
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