Random Sanders Sides Stuff

Panic At The Everywhere

Tw: Cutting, mentions of self harm, blood, gore, panic attacks, mentions of death. Let me know if I missed anything.
Did you know that Virgil took away Thomas's panic attacks? He would have them 5x worse if Anxiety didn't take them away. Both of course, that energy has to go somewhere.
Virgil's P.O.V.
Thomas was having another panic attack. I thought everyone would be fine after the last Sanders Sides episode, where Logan was singing about Crofters with Thomas and Roman, but they still blamed me. I was taking away as much of the panic as I could, much to my headaches dismay. Thomas before you, Virgil, you know this. The others didn't though. You see, whenever Thomas has a panic attack, I take most of the panic instead. His attacks would be 5x worse if I didn't take them. This unfortunately meant that I suffered worse than he did, while still being blamed for causing he attack. Cruel isn't it? But it's how I've adjusted, and while it would be nice too have support through one of my attacks, there's no way I'm letting my walls down now, not after I'd finally been accepted, after I'd finally proved my worth. So I kept it to myself.
Knock knock knock.
"Come in" I manage weakly.
"Thomas wants us all." Patton calls from the other side. "He would just summon us, but he's feeling a little drained after the attack." Yeah, and I'm not.
Regardless, I win down anyways.
"Why would you do that? We've been getting along, why would you give him an attack?" Roman asked angrily and confused.
"Yes, I simply do not see why you would feel the need to harm our host." Logan says before I can respond.
"We should probably let him explain before pointing fingers." Patton says, trying to defuse the situation.
"What is there to explain?" Roman asks, this time just mad.
I finally snap. "You really don't get it do you? You think that every time he has an attack, I disappear to laugh? To enjoy his pain? You think I don't suffer attacks too? I thought you were Logic, not ignorance."
They all look at me surprised, but I'm not done. "You honestly think I cause his attacks? Every time he has one, I suffer 5x worse. I take away as much panic as I can so he gets the bare minimum, and what do I get? I get the blame, thrown on me once again. I wish I could take the full panic attack, I've suffered in silence for this long, who would notice if he never had to endure that again, while I died silently? Who would care? Cause you guys obviously don't. You know what happened the one time I was able to take the full attack? This happened." I finish, rolling up my sleeves so they could see the lines across not my arms. That's what a full-fledged panic attack would result in, self-harm. I knew from experience.
They all stare at me in shock. Suddenly, everyone in the room, even Logan, was full-on bawling. Breaking down in sobs. I realised their panic, and despite my outburst, took it from all them. They all stopped crying in unison, which was kinda creepy, and looked at me wide-eyed. The just of realized their sudden lack of panic. I knew what was coming. I could feel my breathing hitch. I needed to get out of here.
"Well if you'll excuse me," I say, breaking the silence , "I need to go handle the collective panic you all just gave me, so I'll be in my room." I sink out without another word. No one dared to stop me.

Patton's P.O.V.
Thomas was having a panic attack. It was very minor, but it still worried me. The others immediately blamed Virgil. I was sent it to get him.
Knock knock knock.
I hear a weak "Come in", and it breaks my heart. I don't think I can handle seeing him in whatever state he's in, so I just call through the door.
"Thomas wants us all." I say, feeling guilty. I don't know why, I just do.  "He would just summon us, but he's feeling a little drained after the attack." I can almost hear his eye roll, though I don't know why. I can sense others emotions easily, even when I can't see or hear them. Odd.
I sink down, and wait for him to appear. Once he does, the others immediately start blaming him, and I can feel humor radiating off him. But it's a sad humor, like he's not really amused. Finally, I feel a dam break in him, and I regret even bringing him hear, because what he says eats away at my heart.
"You really don't get it do you? You think that every time he has an attack, I disappear to laugh? To enjoy his pain? You think I don't suffer attacks too? I thought you were Logic, not ignorance." We all stare at him in shock,but he's not done yet.
"You honestly think I cause his attacks? Every time he has one, I suffer 5x worse. I take away as much panic as I can so he gets the bare minimum, and what do I get? I get the blame, thrown on me once again. I wish I could take the full panic attack, I've suffered in silence for this long, who would notice if he never had to endure that again, while I died silently? Who would care? Cause you guys obviously don't. You know what happened the one time I was able to take the full attack? This happened." He lifts up his sleeves, and there I see lines across his skin, clearly form self-harm. We all stare shocked, once again,until we all start crying our eyes out. All of a sudden, I with feel panicked anymore, and apparently the same thing happened to all the others, since we all stopped crying at the same time. I look at Virgil in shock. Did he just take our panic away? That question is answered when he talks again.
"Well if you'll excuse me," he says, breaking the silence, "I need to go handle the collective panic you all just gave me, so I'll be in my room." He sinks out without another word. Suddenly Thomas starts breaking down again. Another panic attack?
Thomas suddenly looks calm, and we all realize what he did. He took all of the panic attack, plus all of our panic, and his own on top of that. There was no way he wasn't cutting himself again. We all sink down into the mind, including Thomas.
We are in Virgil's room again. I look at the curtains, and am surprised to see black and purple ones instead of the spider curtains. I see more Disney posters in Prince's spot, and a few conspiracy books where Logan is. And my card is hung up behind Thomas. I guess he did care. I look over to his spot, and notice he isn't there.
"Maybe we should head up the stairs. He could be in his bedroom." I suggest. They all nod in agreement.
"Wait a moment. This looks different than last time. There's a card begin me that it looks like Patton made, there are more Disney posters behind Prince, there are books behind Logic, and the spider curtains are replaced. Did Virgil change his room just for you guys?" Thomas asks, surprised.
"It would appear so. Shall we continue on?" Logan asks, clearly not wanting to be here any longer than needed.
"Yeah. Let's go." Thomas replies, and we head up the stairs.